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Part 3
P. Dedicating Your Day to Peace
Those
who seek the light are merely covering their eyes.
The light is in them now. Enlightenment is but a recognition, not a
change at
all.
A Course in Miracles. Lesson 188
The Futility of Seeking
If there is something wrong with our body we attend to it. For example,
if a finger
is cut we would cover it with a plaster. We normally would not try to
pretend it
was not bleeding. But if there is something wrong in our minds we often
seek to escape
from the problem. For example, we might turn to alcohol to try to
escape from sorrow.
To heal the mind we must stay with the problem so it can be healed
through forgiveness.
One escape from the pain of living in the ego's judgmental mind is to
seek the light
or God. It is not easy to see that the pain in our mind and the object
of our search
are both created by the ego. Now the solution to the suffering in our
mind may appear
to lie somewhere in the future instead of in the present moment, the
only place where
the Holy Spirit can help us with the aid of the holy instant or miracle.
We think by searching we can find truth/God which also implies we will
recognise
it when we find it. We can't search for something we cannot recognise -
otherwise
how will we know when we find it? It must be similar to something we
already know.
But what if God is totally beyond what we are familiar with, as the
mystics have
assured us it is? We are then doomed never to find the goal of our
search. "Seek
and do not find" (T-12.IV.1:4) is the ego's dictum.
So don't seek to become free of desire or "achieve" enlightenment.
Become
present. Be there as the observer of the mind. 'The Power of Now: A
guide to
spiritual enlightenment' by Eckhart Tolle.
You can do nothing to bring (the awareness of God) about, but you
can avoid creating
obstacles.
'I Am That' by Nisargadatta Maharaj
When the mind is no longer seeking, no longer breeding conflict
through its wants
and cravings, when it is silent with understanding, only then can the
immeasurable
come into being.
'Commentaries on Living. Third Series' by J Krishnamurti
The Trap of Dependence
During this hopeless search for God we may be tempted to depend on a
guru or teacher
to lead us to truth. This reminds me of a story from Anthony de Mello's
book 'One
Minute Wisdom':
To a visitor who asked to become his disciple the Master said, "You
may live
with me, but don't become my follower."
"Whom, then, shall I follow?"
"No one. The day you follow someone you cease to follow Truth."
Jesus asks us to follow his guidance which becomes clearer as we
practice our
daily forgiveness lessons. We can, of course, learn from other teachers
and spiritual
disciplines but should not forget we carry our teacher with us in our
right minds.
Our task is to remember that we can always turn to this teacher instead
of the ego.
God Knows The Way To Us
It is the arrogance of the ego that thinks it knows the way to God.
Jesus reminds
us gently that we are but confused children lost in our dream of
separation and driven
mad by guilt. Put that way it perhaps make sense not to trust our own
good intentions!
Is it not He Who knows the way to you? You need not know the way to
Him. Your
part is simply to allow all obstacles that you have interposed between
the Son and
God the Father to be quietly removed forever. God will do His part in
joyful and
immediate response.
A Course in Miracles. Lesson 189
Thus Jesus is telling us to relax and stop striving after God. Let us
just do our
part and then God will do His - but in His own time, not ours.
When one finally gives up one's futile attempts to make reality
conform to one's
own wishes, and allows it to unfold on its own terms, all the energy
that was tied
up in foolish attempts to manipulate the universe is freed up.
'Halfway up the Mountain - the Error of Premature Claims to
Enlightenment' by Mariana
Caplan. Hohm Press
Realistic Goals
In reading the lives of saints we can discover people who seem to have
reached exalted
states and we can be tempted to desire the same for ourselves. After
all, who would
not want to be one with God? However, can the unenlightened judge who
is truly enlightened
or are they forced to always be dealing with their own ideas and
projections of what
the enlightened state is? Is a permanent union with God a realistic
goal and is it
actually possible whilst we still desire to exist as bodies?
Sometimes a teacher of God may have a brief experience of direct
union with God.
In this world, it is almost impossible that this endure. It can,
perhaps, be won
after much devotion and dedication, and then be maintained for much of
the time on
earth. But this is so rare that it cannot be considered a realistic
goal. If it happens,
so be it. If it does not happen, so be it as well. All worldly states
must be illusory.
If God were reached directly in sustained awareness, the body would not
be long maintained.
M-26.3.1:8
The body, which was created so we could hide from God, could not last
long in the
presence of what it was originally designed to hide from.
The goal of A Course in Miracles is peace, brought about by
forgiveness. With
peace the memory of God returns and who we really are - the formless,
eternal Christ.
This is a realistic goal and one that is promised to all of us.
Daily Practice
Once we begin to realise that seeking the light is but an escape from
facing our
pain and that we cannot know the path to God, we can really begin our
journey home.
When we realise the movement away from what is actually happening in
our minds to
the pursuit of some far-off solution is a false and useless journey, we
can start
the real work which will lead to peace of mind and the return of the
awareness of
God's love for us. Every day we are presented with fresh opportunities
to look at
our self-created pain, accept it and let it go with Jesus's help. The
ego's advice
to deny our guilt and project it onto others can now be chosen against.
A constant
vigilance or awareness of our ego thoughts is required so we can give
them to the
Holy Spirit for healing. This is not easy, as indicated in this remark
to Helen Schucman
by Jesus, "You are much too tolerant of mind wandering, and are
passively condoning
your mind's miscreations." (T-2.VI.4:6 ) When we fulfil our part in the
plan
for salvation we will experience peace.
.
Deepen and broaden your awareness of yourself and all the blessings
will flow.
You need not seek anything, all will come to you most naturally and
effortlessly.
'I Am That' by Nisargadatta Maharaj
Our yearning for permanent peace and happiness can now be set aside and
this energy
directed into the daily classroom of our relationships. And we can
smile gently at
our desire to be enlightened in this life and leave the timing of that
in God's hands.
Grow as the flower grows, unconsciously, but eagerly anxious to open
its soul
to the air. So must you press forward to open your soul to the Eternal.
But it must
be the Eternal that draws forth your strength and beauty, not desire of
growth. For
in the one case you develop in the luxuriance of purity: in the other
you harden
by the forcible passion for personal stature.
'Light on the Path' by Mabel Collins
For further quotations on this theme see The Enlightenment Trap
(Copyright)
Michael Dawson
N.
Finding the Peace of God
P.
DEDICATING YOUR
DAY TO PEACE
"Would You Rather be
Right
or Happy?" T29.VII.1:9
The purpose of A Course in Miracles is to teach us how to be at
peace no matter
what is happening around us. It also teaches us that this is the last
thing we want.
One look at the state of our lives and the world will bear this out.
Why would we not want peace? There must be something we are very afraid
of here -
and there is. It will cost us everything we cherish. Our individuality,
our specialness,
our need to be right, the seeming control over our lives or, in a word,
our ego.
The Course defines the "ego" as the thought of separation, our desire
to
separate from God and do our own thing. The egos song is "I did it my
way".
The ego believes it knows everything needed to find happiness in the
world and does
not require any inner guidance thankyou. Jesus points out that we
could progress
quickly on the path to peace and happiness by listening to the
ever-present help
of the Holy Spirit, but we find the idea personally insulting
(M-9.2:4). It implies
that all our hard-won knowledge and experience in life counts for
nothing when it
comes to finding real joy. He goes further and states that if we
believe we are bodies
then we are insane. And how can the insane possible know how to find
peace? They
obviously need help from outside their deluded thought system. We are
all psychotic
to Jesus and all need his help to extricate ourselves from the pain and
loneliness
we are in.
I remember a period in my own life when I felt little trust in anyone,
thought everything
was up to me to do and arranged my life so that I was self-sufficient.
I bought a
campervan so that I always had a home and the ability to go where I
liked. Now I
needed help from no-one. My illusion of self-sufficiency was soon
shattered, however,
when the campervan developed an illusive starter motor fault. The only
way I could
start the van was to get a push. This meant asking for help, and not
just from one
person but two as the van was too heavy to be moved by one person. I
found this embarrassing
to do and quickly took the van to the garage for repair. Each time I
did this they
could find nothing wrong. Nonetheless the van still managed to break
down on a regular
basis, forcing me to ask for help. Looking back I see what a good
lesson that was
for me and I gradually learned a little about asking for help.
The only way we can return to peace is to willingly give up the ego
through the practice
of forgiveness and turning within for help. But the ego is our
creation, an idea
the sleeping Son of God once thought was a very good idea (and still
does). However,
as the Course points out, our "tolerance for pain may be high but is
not without
limit." (T-2.III.3:5). To maintain the seeming separation from God is
very tiring.
To be at home in Heaven but pretend we are in time and space takes a
lot of effort
and we slowly begin to think there must be "another way".
Each day we have a choice to make. We can say, "I want to be right and
happiness
is unimportant," or we can say, "I want to be happy and peaceful, I
dont
need to be right." We should never underestimate our desire to be
right. This
is how the seeming separation from God started. We thought we knew how
we could have
something even better than Heaven. The idea of separate beings who
could play at
being God sounded right. What we have discovered is a loss of peace and
joy, but
we dont want to admit to that, and continue to try to find that elusive
happiness
here in the world. We are right but no longer happy. I will give a
story from my
own experience here that illustrates some of the points raised here.
One night shortly before going to sleep, Salice (my late wife) and I
had an argument.
My ego told me I had been unfairly treated and I should separate from
her by not
communicating. Salices ego had apparently given her the same advice,
for neither
of us was now talking to the other! I got out of bed and went to the
bathroom. I
saw a pack of Workbook Lesson cards and felt the impulse to take one.
The title of
the Lesson was "I could see peace instead of this." (Lesson 34) The
significance
of the Lesson was not lost on me and simultaneously another line from
the Course
came into my mind: "Do you prefer to be right or happy?" (T29.VII.1:9)
For a moment I considered my two options and then said to myself, "Id
rather
be right" and put the Lesson card down again. Feeling miserable but
justified
in my pain, I returned silently to bed and fell asleep.
In the morning I woke up still feeling separated from Salice, as she
did from me.
I returned to the bathroom and remembered picking up the Lesson card
from the night
before. Out of curiosity I read the title again, ‘I could see peace
instead of this,
and remembered the choice I had to be right or happy. I became still
for a moment
and this time I chose to be happy. I felt the impulse to share what was
happening
to me with Salice. She was sitting quietly at the table and as I sat
down next to
her I said, ‘I want to let you know that Im not handling my side of
this dispute
very well. At this statement Salice began to cry and we began to share
honestly with
each other how we had been feeling.
Through this process we were able to understand each others fear and
found ourselves
quickly moving into a state of mutual openness, care and affection. In
the language
of the Course, we had joined and felt at peace. At these moments I
always wonder
why I choose to be right and not happy. However, I am also aware that
it is taking
me a shorter time to forgive than it has done in the past. What would
upset me for
days may only last a few hours now. I am also aware that some issues
which triggered
pain in me in the past no longer affect me. Progress on the spiritual
path may be
measured by how much of the day is spent listening to the ego compared
to the voice
of the Holy Spirit.
[reprinted from "Healing
the Cause - A Path of Forgiveness"
Findhorn Press. ]
At the start of Chapter 30 in the Text will be found a set of very
practical rules
on how to achieve a peaceful day. Actually, only the first rule is
needed and reminds
you, once again, that you only have a choice of listening to two
counsellors in your
mind - the ego or the Holy Spirit. And only the Holy Spirits counsel
will give you
peace.
Rules for Decision
Rule 1 - Today I will make no decisions by myself.
We are always taking advice, either from the ego or the Holy
Spirit. Here we
are being asked to ask advice from the Holy Spirit.
Rule 2 - If I make no decisions by myself, this is the day that will
be given
me (peaceful).
To help reinforce your learning Jesus uses rule 2 as a reminder, to
be used throughout
the day.
Rule 3 - I have no question. I forgot what to decide.
A major problem to be avoided is setting up your own answers to a
problem which
you then ask the Holy Spirit to choose between. Humility is required of
us here,
a willingness to be open to any answer the Holy Spirit gives us - not
just the ones
we want to hear.
Rule 4 - At least I can decide I do not like what I feel now.
Rules 4 to 7 are ways to return to your goal of a peaceful day if
you have started
listening to the voice of the ego again.
Rule 5 - And so I hope I have been wrong.
Rule 6 - I want another way to look at this.
Rule 7 - Perhaps there is another way to look at this.
What can I lose by asking?
I want
the peace
of God.
To say these words is nothing.
But to mean these words is everything.
If you could but mean them for just an instant,
there would be no further sorrow possible for you in any form; in any
place or time.
Heaven would be completely given back to full awareness,
memory of God entirely restored, the resurrection of all creation fully
recognized.
W-pI.185.1.1:4
Portions
from A Course in Miracles®1975, reprinted by permission of
the
Foundation
For
A Course In Miracles® 41397 Buecking Drive, Temecula,
California 92590-5668,
USA
Q Creating Our Own reality
I was recently asked the question "To what extent do we create our own
reality
over a lifetime?". This is an interesting topic and brings up the old
issue
of free will versus predetermination. A number of present day teachers
stress that
everything is predetermined; we are simply pawns in God's great cosmic
play. Some
people are created as murderers whilst others are their victims and
neither one has
any choice in the matter. The Course, however, stresses we do have
choice although
its not infinite. To understand the Course's position we need to go
into its teachings
on time which means looking first at the metaphysics of the Course.
After that we
can look at what the Course says about decision-making.
Time
Jesus states we need new ideas about time but also says how difficult
it is for us
to understand these ideas. Linear time is what we take as the truth,
whilst Jesus
tells us that time is holographic - everything is happening in one
moment.
The ego uses time to preserve itself. It tells us that in the past we
decided to
separate from God and achieved this. To save us from the resulting
overwhelming guilt,
it advised us to deny this ever happened. This imagined sin in the past
is experienced
in the present as guilt leading to a fear of punishment in the future.
All our fear
stems from this unconscious guilt from a separation that never really
happened.
In contrast the Holy Spirit reminds us that the "tiny mad idea" (see
below)
of separation was undone by the Holy Spirit the moment it was thought.
God gave His Teacher to replace the one you made, not to conflict
with it. And
what He would replace has been replaced. Time lasted but an instant in
your mind,
with no effect upon eternity. And so is all time past, and everything
exactly as
it was before the way to nothingness was made. The tiny tick of time in
which the
first mistake was made, and all of them within that one mistake, held
also the Correction
for that one, and all of them that came within the first. And in that
tiny instant
time was gone, for that was all it ever was. What God gave answer to is
answered
and is gone. A Course in Miracles T-26.V.3:1-7
In that "tiny tick of time" the whole universe was born, evolved and
died
along with all the thoughts we experienced.
"All thinking produces form at some level." (T-2.VI.9:14), and so all
these
thoughts manifested in time and space. This is somewhat similar to
parallel universes
hypothesised by some quantum physicists - that all possible results of
an experiment
exist and the participating scientist chooses one of them to manifest.
Although everything
was corrected in that original instant we have chosen not to accept the
Holy Spirit's
correction and perversely continue as if we are still special
individuals separated
in space and linear time.
The world of time is the world of illusion. What happened long ago
seems to be
happening now. Choices made long since appear to be open; yet to be
made. What has
been learned and understood and long ago passed by is looked upon as a
new thought,
a fresh idea, a different approach. Because your will is free you can
accept what
has already happened at any time you choose, and only then will you
realize that
it was always there. For we but see the journey from the point at which
it ended,
looking back on it, imagining we make it once again; reviewing mentally
what has
gone by. TM-2.3:1-5
To help make this a bit clearer I will use a couple of analogies. There
are currently
available novels which give the reader a choice of which plot to
develop. At the
end of each chapter you choose from several plots; for example, if the
hero gets
married or decides to say single. You are then directed to the
appropriate page and
the story continues based on your previous choice of plot. A multiple,
but not infinite,
story line. In that original instant of seeming separation we also had
an enormous,
but not infinite, number of stories which we now reviewing in our time
and space
theatre.
Dr Kenneth Wapnick, in his excellent book, A Vast illusion - time
according to
a Course in Miracles, uses the analogy of the VCR. The sleeping son
of God or
decision-maker is sitting there watching video tapes of what occurred
in that "tiny
tick of time". He has a choice between two huge and equal piles of
video tapes
- the ego tapes and tapes of their correction by the Holy Spirit. One
of the correction
tapes is entitled 'Atonement' in which the sleeping son of God finally
wakes up and
joyfully realises he never left his Father's home and that time and
space are illusions.
At this point he stops the pointless practice of viewing videotapes of
what has already
occurred.
The purpose of the spiritual path is to speed the time of awakening. As
Jesus states
a few times in the workbook, we could save thousands of years (many
reviews of ego
tapes) if we did a particular lesson correctly. Thus time can be
collapsed through
forgiveness. As an example, your partner may suddenly die and leave you
heartbroken.
In that original instant you may have had two thoughts - to turn to
drugs to alleviate
the pain or dedicate your life to finding a peace that no death can
take away - the
choice of two videos to review. If you turn to the Holy Spirit for
guidance He will
urge you to review the latter and so save time.
We do not wish to see the power of our mind for then we would know that
we are choosing
what happens in our lives. It would be impossible to feel a victim,
blame others
or to experience justified anger - all things our egos love and use to
maintain the
ego. The Course tells us that the ego overcomes this problem by first
making a decision
and then immediately denying it has made it. For example, faced with a
difficult
decision you turn to the ego for help. It might suggest you avoid the
problem by
getting sick. You, the decision-maker, decide it's good advice and
choose to get
flu and retire to bed and thus postpone the difficult decision. The
moment you decide
to get the flu you immediately deny making the decision. You can no
longer be blamed
for postponing the decision as you are the unfortunate victim of a flu
virus and
are no longer in a condition to make appropriate decisions.
Due to our fixation with linear time it is hard for us to realise that
all our problems
are solvable instantly. The correction video has always existed and we
need not delay
in reviewing it.
I seem to have problems only because I am misusing time. I believe
that the problem
comes first, and time must elapse before it can be worked out. I do not
see the problem
and the answer as simultaneous in their occurrence. That is because I
do not yet
realise that God has placed the answer together with the problem, so
that they cannot
be separated by time. The Holy Spirit will teach me this, if I will let
Him. And
I will understand it is impossible that I could have a problem which
has not been
solved already. W-pI.90.3.
This also relates to the teachings in the text about the Laws of Chaos
where it states
there is no hierarchy of illusions, no order of difficulty in miracles.
Any problem,
irrespective of its seeming magnitude, has already been corrected and
is simply waiting
acceptance. Our job is to turn to the Holy Spirit and ask His advice on
what video
to review thus speeding the time to when we review, the Atonement video
wherein we
awake from this dream of separation.
To you who still believe you live in time and know not it is gone,
the Holy Spirit
still guides you through the infinitely small and senseless maze you
still perceive
in time, though it has long since gone. You think you live in what is
past. Each
thing you look upon you saw but for an instant, long ago, before its
unreality gave
way to truth. Not one illusion still remains unanswered in your mind.
Uncertainty
was brought to certainty so long ago that it is hard indeed to hold it
to your heart,
as if it were before you still. T-26.V.4
Some of the above material has been extracted from an article entitled
"Collapsing
Time" which can be found at http://www.acfip.org/art2.html
Decision Making
I was recently asked if our house in Australia is to be the Australian
Centre for
Inner Peace? I replied that it was too small to be a centre although it
could accommodate
small workshops. I would like to use the theme of this article to
explore this question
further. Can I and should I start a centre for inner peace? Drawing
upon the metaphysics
of the Course I find I can only relive what occurred in the “tiny tick
of time” If
a 'video tape' of an Australian centre for inner peace does not exist
there is absolutely
nothing that anyone can do to create a centre for we can only review
what has already
happened. If there is a video tape existing I still have to choose to
replay it.
The only criterion for replaying it is if it would help or hinder my
awakening. Jesus
does not ask us to spread the word about A Course in Miracles
but “to accept
the atonement for ourselves” - that is, to awake from the dream of time
and space
and separation. I can't possibly know if it's in my highest interests
to have a physical
centre so I must seek the guidance of the Holy Spirit. If there is a
rightness about
the project I must wait for the right timing and opportunity. If there
is to be a
centre at some point I will become aware of something new in my life,
some current
or flow that is asking me to move in a particular direction and I need
to embrace
it and flow with it. I have thus made a decision to accept this new
direction although
I do not know the final destination or the timing. The journey will be
as important
as the the destination on my path of forgiveness.
Every moment we are making decisions, in this we have no choice. Where
we do have
choice is with whom we make the decisions. No decision is made simply
by ourselves.
We always turn to the ego or the Holy Spirit for counsel.
And yet, you cannot (underlined) make decisions by yourself. The
only question
really is with what you choose to make them. That is really all. ....
You will not
make decisions by yourself whatever you decide. For they are made with
idols (ego)
or with God. And you ask help of anti-Christ (ego) or Christ, and which
you choose
will join with you and tell you what to do. T-30.I.14:3-9
It is here we create our own reality by choosing either the ego or
the Holy Spirit
as our advisor on which 'video' to review. The number of 'videos' we
have to choose
from is fixed and will depend on the number of choices we originally
had in that
"tiny tick of time". This is the predetermination part of the equation.
Which 'video' we choose to review is where our free will comes into
play. Our last
act of free will will be to give it up and rely totally on the Holy
Spirit's guidance.
Only then will we experience peace as we drop forever our ego plans for
happiness.
A healed mind does not plan. It carries out the plans that it
receives through
listening to Wisdom that is not its own. It waits until it has been
taught what should
be done, and then proceeds to do it. It does not depend upon itself for
anything
except its adequacy to fulfil the plans assigned to it. It is secure in
certainty
that obstacles cannot impede its progress to accomplishment of any goal
that serves
the greater plan established for the good of everyone. Lesson 135
To release control of steering our own boat through life and pass
the tiller
to a higher power is perhaps the hardest of our lessons to learn. Jesus
says it was
his final lesson:
It is possible even in this world to hear only that Voice (Holy
Spirit) and no
other. It takes effort and great willingness to learn. It is the final
lesson that
I learned, and God's Sons are as equal as learners as they are as Sons.
T-5.II.3:9-11
However, each day we can practise asking the Holy Spirit which 'videos'
He would
prefer us to review so that we can collapse time and speed the day we
choose to review
the wake up video of the atonement and remember our spiritual reality
and our true
home in heaven.
R. Opening to the Light
Why wait for Heaven? Those who seek the light are merely
covering their eyes.
The light is in them now. Enlightenment is but a recognition, not a
change at all.
from A Course in Miracles W-pI.188.1:1-4
The light, love and joy of God are ever present and wait only our
acceptance.
We need not earn them as they were freely given at our creation. Nor is
sacrifice
or suffering required. So why do we rarely experience the light?
Within the illusion of time we long ago decided separation was
preferable to oneness.
We entered space and time seeking happiness outside ourselves. That we
have not succeeded
is obvious - one look at the world clearly shows this. However, we are
still optimistic
and carry on searching for that elusive peace and joy. At times we find
it only to
see it slip away from our grasp. Our ego encourages us to keep trying
not mentioning
its real goal is to ensure we never succeed.
I have said that the ego's rule is, "Seek and do not find."
Translated
into curricular terms this means, "Try to learn but do not succeed."
T-12.V.7:1-2
The ego is the thought of separation that we, the sleeping Christ, have
created.
It lives as long as we give it power and we will continue to do this
while we think
it serves us. It wants to continue and thus seeks ways to keep us
believing it's
worth keeping. As we begin to slowly realise that following the ego's
thought system
of separation brings only pain we start to turn to the Holy Spirit in
our mind for
help. We start to open to the light.
Tolerance for pain may be high, but it is not without limit.
Eventually everyone
begins to recognize, however dimly, that there must be a better
way. As this
recognition becomes more firmly established, it becomes a turning point.
T-2.III.3:5-7
OBSTACLES TO THE
LIGHT
The ego becomes alarmed at the direction we are starting to take and
counsels us
to return to him. He warns us that the Holy Spirit works for God and
don't we remember
we broke up Heaven, took God's power and set ourselves up in time and
space where
we hope God will not find us and exact his just revenge!
I have watched participants on workshops having some form of experience
that brings
them closer to God's love and light and then a short time after they
experience some
fear, depression or sickness.
As the light comes nearer you will rush to darkness, shrinking from
the truth,
sometimes retreating to the lesser forms of fear, and sometimes to
stark terror.
But you will advance, because your goal is the advance from fear to
truth. T-18.III.2:1-2
On the one hand we are starting to tire of the ego's ways of attack,
judgement, justified
anger and victimhood but are terrified of losing our sense of identity,
specialness
and individuality. We are strongly attached to thinking we are a body
with important
roles and ambitions in the world. The notion of spiritually advancing
and finally
sitting on the right hand of God is very appealing. But notice
something about this
picture. You are still there! Duality has crept into the oneness of
Heaven. This
is the ego's version of spiritual growth - you take him with you to God.
In the fifth stage of the "Development of Trust" in the Manual for
Teachers
Jesus tells us we will all go through a "Period of Unsettling".
Although
we are close to the top of the ladder of trust, the Real World, we may
remain a "long,
long time" at this penultimate stage. Why? We need to willingly release
the
sense of "I", of a "me" before we can return home.
Peace and joy exist only in the state of oneness or union with God. To
know this
means releasing our investment in the ego's thought system of
separation. Our dilemma
is illustrated in the following story.
A man is swinging on a trapeze. He knows this trapeze well but is
starting to tire
of it. He is not happy where he is and knows he must change something.
Suddenly he
sees an empty trapeze swinging backwards and forwards in front of him.
On closer
inspection he sees his name written on the bar. He knows he must let go
of his familiar
trapeze before he can grasp the new one. His fear of the new and the
death of the
old make him want to hold onto the old trapeze with one hand whilst
trying to grab
the new one. An impossible task. Likewise, the ego still has a powerful
hold on us
whilst we are being drawn ever more strongly to the light of the Holy
Spirit.
The "Obstacles to Peace" in Chapter 19 of the ACIM Text spells out the
various arguments the ego will use to persuade us to stay with him. He
tells us the
body is valuable for what it offers and that pain "proves" that it is
real
and the Holy Spirit is a liar when He says it's an illusion. Death is
further "proof"
that the body is real and separate from God. Our attraction to guilt,
attack, hate
and anger also act as a defense to experiencing the love of God, which
would lead
to the death of the ego. The ego warns us that God is waiting at the
end of our spiritual
path to exact his justified vengeance (so don't go there!) Better to
get caught up
in the world's ambitions, know the body is the only reality and don't
rock the boat.
As we slowly start to desert our ego its cries will follow us until
that day dawns
when we finally give up all investment in its illusions.
And the illusions subtly change. Seeing through the cruder illusions of
the eg (that
materialism will bring us happiness), we then fall into the trap off
spiritual materialism.
Yearning for God and enlightenment can keep us trapped for a long time.
The desire for truth is the highest of all desires, yet, it is still
a desire.
All desires must be given up for the real to be.....When all search
ceases, it is
the Supreme State.
from I Am That by Nisargadatta Maharaj.
Knowing we will experience fear and ambivalence on our journey is very
helpful. The
journey back to God is not sweetness and light. As the ego continues to
rear its
ugly head we can start to practise forgiveness.
FORGIVENESS
Forgiveness, on the other hand, is still, and quietly does nothing.
It offends
no aspect of reality, nor seeks to twist it to appearances it likes. It
merely looks,
and waits, and judges not. W-pII.1.4:1-3
This quotation is asking us to look quietly at our ego and not to fix
them or improve
it. We are asked not to hate or love it for it is nothing, simply the
absence of
love which is awaiting our welcome. It must wait while we welcome the
ego instead.
The ego, not being real, merely needs to be observed without judgement.
As we learn
slowly to maintain a witness attitude to our ego's behaviour we remove
our investment
from it and it begins to fade. Starved of attention and guilt its food
supplies shrivel
and it must start to lose its grip on our minds. But as soon as we feel
guilty about
its behaviour or thoughts we are saying to it, "You are real, I believe
in you".
This is our day in and day out practice. Not yearning for God or
enlightenment. Just
watching our mind and not judging what we see while asking the Holy
Spirit/Jesus
for help in seeing the situation peacefully. Slowly we start to smile
at the ego's
goings-on. "Oh, I see I want to throttle the driver who just cut me off
on the
road. That reminds me of the anger I felt yesterday when someone jumped
the queue
I was waiting patiently in. So what's new!"
Many times we will forget to forgive and ask for help. On seeing this
we can still
learn to smile at our lack of practice, to forgive ourselves for not
forgiving.
I recently saw someone had summarised my AAA approach to forgiveness
and include
it below.
1. AWARENESS
What is denied cannot be forgiven. Awareness of our inner world is as
important as
awareness of our outer world. Our egos will fight our attempts to
become more aware
of our darker sides. Watch thoughts without judgment - develop a
"compassionate
witness." The ability to watch thinking means we are not our thoughts.
2. ACCEPTANCE
What you resist persists. Acceptance dissolves guilt. Acceptance
invites healing
and change. Change is feared and can block forgiveness.
3. ASKING FOR HELP
Awareness and acceptance are our responsibility. A genuine desire for
peace invites
healing. Our inner guide completes the forgiveness process and will
choose the form
forgiveness takes: our job is to surrender to its guidance.
Reprinted from www.care2.com - adapted from The Findhorn Book of
Forgiveness,
by Michael Dawson
As we practise our daily forgiveness lessons the wall of the ego starts
to fade revealing
God's light behind it - a light incapable of destruction, only of being
hidden. The
fear of God's love for us, which will dissolve our egos, begins to fall
away and
we understand and follow Jesus's guidance at last:
My brother, you are part of God and part of me. When you have at
last looked at
the ego's foundation without shrinking you will also have looked upon
ours. I come
to you from our Father to offer you everything again. Do not refuse it
in order to
keep a dark cornerstone hidden, for its protection will not save you. I
give you
the lamp and I will go with you. You will not take this journey alone.
I will lead
you to your true Father, Who hath need of you, as I have. Will you not
answer the
call of love with joy? T-11.in.4.
(The theme of this article is developed in my workshop "Opening to
the Light")