ACFIP Newsletter
Issue 43 - December 2014
Quarterly Newsletter of the Australian Centre for Inner Peace
Michael Dawson
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CONTENTS:
* The SeekerÕs Quest - A Story - Michael Dawson
* Healing Others Part 2 of 3 - Michael Dawson
* Story of Awakening - End of Separation in the Timeless Now - Gail
Brenner
* Preparing the Ground - Jan Frazier
* Leaving the Shores of Belief - Mark McCloskey
* Workshops
* Books and Audio Materials for Sale
* Links
* Inspirational Quotations
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The SeekerÕs Quest
- A Story -
Why wait for Heaven? Those who seek the light are merely covering
their eyes. The light is in them now. Enlightenment is but a
recognition, not a change at all. Light is not of the world, yet you
who bear the light in you are alien here as well. The light came
with you from your native home, and stayed with you because it is
your own. It is the only thing you bring with you from Him Who is
your Source. It shines in you because it lights your home, and leads
you back to where it came from and you are at home.
A Course in Miracles. Lesson 188
Once upon a time there was a land called Noisy. All the people who
lived there spent most of their time being noisy. Everywhere they
travelled they made noise. It was natural for them, for it was all
they ever knew. Some people were a bit more noisy than other people
and sometimes they were judged for that. But, bottom line, they were
all noisy. When the noisy people came together they all created more
noise.
One day a group of noisy people were talking together when one of
them said that he had heard there was something called ÔsilenceÕ.
The people wondered what that could be? Most of the people thought
there could not be such a thing and laughed at the idea. The person
who had first spoken about it claimed that he had had brief moments
of silence. He said they were wonderful, peaceful and joyful. But
then the noise would return again. Most people listening to him
thought he was a fool and laughed at him.
One of the noisy people became interested in what he had heard.
Somehow he felt that there was some truth in what this man said. He
could not even explain it to himself, just at some level of his
being it seemed to ring true and to be possible. He thought he would
try to find this silence. He became a silence seeker.
He started to spend more and more of his time reading about silence,
going to workshops on silence and traveling to places where he
thought he might find the silence. He went to temples and
mountaintops. He did have his brief moments of silence and he saw
and felt how wonderful it was. Always the noise would return,
however.
He knew he had to redouble his efforts if he were to be successful.
More and more books were appearing about how to find the silence. He
consumed them. He particularly liked the books (and these were the
ones that sold the most) that stated you could actually possess the
silence along with your noise. You could add the silence to the
noise and have the best of both worlds. They gave all sorts of ways
and techniques for success. This was very appealing - he could
still be noisy and then add the bonus of silence to himself.
There were also some rather disturbing books and workshops that said
if the silence is to be, the noise cannot be there as well. But he
was the noise! They seemed to be asking him to commit suicide if he
was to know the silence! This can't be true, he thought. So he
decided to return to the other popular books and workshops. He now
felt much safer and was joyfully looking forward to the day when he
would find that silence and add it to himself.
It takes humans a long time to realize that there is no concept for
God and no direction to Him. The oneness we crave dissolves the
moment we set ourselves on a path. To stop in the oneness requires
dissolution of ourselves, so we keep moving on our path hastily.
MG
Remember: if you can cease all restless activity, your integral
nature will appear .... live a quiet and simple life, free of ideas
and concepts.
Hua Hu Ching
One of the popular approaches he was taught was that when he was
making noise he needed to fight and suppress it. He did have moments
of success but always the noise would return again, and sometimes it
would be even noisier. When he spoke about this to his teachers they
told him to redouble his efforts and try even harder to suppress the
noise. So he continued and tried even harder but always the same
results - some success followed by return of the noise.
He eventually became dispirited, feeling this was all very unfair
considering the efforts he was making. One day he became so tired
with all this seeking, all this effort, he just gave up. He said to
himself that obviously he was failure and that there was no point
continuing. At that moment there was a wonderful burst of deep
silence that flooded his awareness. He was absolutely amazed. He
realised his true nature was silence and not noise. He had stopped
doing anything to achieve silence and there it was! He was so
excited at what had just happened the noise returned again. But he
had seen something, tasted something, that was much deeper than
before. The silence came when he gave up searching for silence!
There was a great clue here. He started to visit and study the
people who lived in the silence. He observed that they only made
brief noises to communicate with others. They all seemed to have the
same message for him: don't fight the noises that you make. They
asked him to simply listen to the noises he makes, not to try to
change them, gently smile at the noises, accept them and start to
lose interest in them.
You are where your mind is. Escape from the thought sphere,
therefore, is the imperative. It is not accomplished by killing the
mind, resisting thought or similar acts. Instead, it happens quite
naturally by removing attention from thoughts. Without the energy of
attention, thought dies. You need not stop thinking. Just cease
being interested. It is disinterestedness that liberates. Don't hold
on, that is all.
Sri Nisargadatta Maharaj
He learnt that this is a process over time. The noises will continue
to return but without feeding them with attention they will start to
wither and die away. You will not need to control and suppress them,
they will simply start to stop arising. They are only there because
you're interested in them and think they bring you something. But if
you just step back and watch them quietly, with no judgement, with a
lack of interest in what they offer, they will simply fade away.
Forgiveness ... is still, and quietly does nothing. .... It
merely looks, and waits, and judges not. A Course in Miracles
W-pII.1.4:1,3
As the noise begins to die, the silence which is always there will
start to appear in awareness. He realised that when he gave up
seeking, by being exhausted in his search, he stopped being noisy.
He saw that fighting the noise, trying to suppress the noise, was
just making more noise. He was using noise to fight noise - no
wonder it never worked! More effort resulted in more noise. He
laughed at himself, all these years of fighting noise, the
discipline, the effort, was just more noisy behaviour.
What he realised is that it was important to stop the battle and to
relax. Yes, the noises were still there, but he was learning to
smile at them more and not to judge himself for having noise. At
times he would get caught up in noise again and it would take some
while until he became aware of what had happened. He learned not to
feel guilty. There was a certain effort required in awareness, but
this felt so much more gentle and easy, pulling back into awareness
after catching himself being noisy again. He smiled in recognition
that he'd fallen back into the old trap of being interested in the
noise which allowed him to be gentle with himself and move back into
a space of simply watching the noises he made.
Gradually he learned not to indulge in the noises so much, or feed
them with his interest. He was content to wait and watch until the
time came and the noise no longer held his interest. Gradually more
and more of his time was spent in the silence and when he needed to
make a noise to communicate the noise came from the silence and
carried its wisdom and peace.
His early goal of adding the joy of silence to his noise was seen as
impossible. Silence and noise cannot coexist together. He had spent
years trying to achieve this impossible goal. Although it had not
been necessary, he also realised he still had to do it before he
could see the hopelessness of that approach. Those years of seeking
were not wasted. He saw that he had to exhaust himself as a seeker
of silence before the silence could dawn in his awareness.
As the silence deepened there were times he experienced fear. The
fear was connected with the insight that to permanently enter the
silence the noise must die. But he was identified with the noise -
who was he without being noise? It seemed to be in invitation to
death, to suicide.
Every man fears this Nothingness, because when he comes into contact
with it, he becomes it in the same way as flame engulfs whatever it
touches. Then, he is no longer something distinct.
Wu Hsin
This fear held him back from a deeper, permanent realisation about
the truth of who he really was. The silence always existed, it was
eternal, and there could be no noise without silence; silence was
the eternal background to everything, was always there although not
recognised.
The world can teach no images of you unless you want to learn
them. There will come a time when images have all gone by, and
you will see you know not what you are. It is to this unsealed
and open mind that truth returns, unhindered and unbound.
Where concepts of the self have been laid by is truth revealed
exactly as it is. When every concept has been raised to doubt
and question, and been recognized as made on no assumptions that
would stand the light, then is the truth left free to enter in its
sanctuary, clean and free of guilt. There is no statement that
the world is more afraid to hear than this:
I do not know the thing I am, and therefore do not know what I
am doing, where I am, or how to look upon the world or on myself.
Yet in this learning is salvation born. And What you are
will tell you of Itself.
A Course in Miracles T-31.V.17.
The ones who had entered the silence and now lived there were aware
of this fear. They counselled him that his fear was unreal, that all
he would actually lose was an illusion of who he thought he was.
They gently encouraged him on, to release his identification with
noise and to surrender into the silence. They told him he would lose
nothing and gain everything. When he needed to make noises to
communicate that would happen naturally and spontaneously. He would
not lose that ability, instead it would be greatly improved and
effortless. He would now live his life from the silence, and the
love and the wisdom that were there would now guide his life. There
would no longer be effort or decisions to be made. He would know
what to do, when to speak and where to go without ever having to
think about it. His guide now would be the silence, that was all he
would ever need.
Be quiet in your mind, quiet in your senses, and quiet in your
body. Then, when all these are quiet, donÕt do anything.
In that state truth will reveal itself to you.
Kabir
Gently, gently, I trained my mind to suspend its processes and
thoughts. Then (in the windless calm), the flame of the Lamp,
shining steady and bright, Revealed my true nature unto me.
Lalla
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Chapter 7 - Healing Others
Part 2 of 3
(Reprinted from Healing the Cause -A Path of Forgiveness. by
Michael Dawson)
The Healed and the Unhealed Healer - Part 1
Much can be learned about the nature of true healing by examining
the differences which the Course describes between the healed and
the unhealed healer. Jesus is an example of a healed healer because
he only ever listens to the Voice of the Holy Spirit. Although very
few are at this stage, whenever we allow the presence of the Holy
Spirit into our mind during a healing session, then in that instant
we become a healed healer. What follows is a number of contrasting
pairs of statements, with explanations from these two perspectives.
I shall use relevant quotations from the Course to clarify the
difference further.
1a. The Unhealed Healer: "I have special powers that others donÕt."
Magic always sees something ÔspecialÕ in the healer, which he
believes he can offer as a gift to someone who does not have it. He
may believe that the gift comes from God to him, but it is quite
evident that he does not understand God if he thinks he has
something that others lack.
(T111f; T-7.V.4:4-5)
The statement of the unhealed healer is an easy trap to fall into.
The separated state produces a deep sense of inferiority which is
often compensated for by acting in a superior manner. To believe you
are specially gifted with the power of healing leads to a sense of
ego inflation and subsequent comparison and judgement of other
healers. Once again we see the egoÕs desire to be special and
different from other people. The healer may realise that healing is
not of him but through him. He must still be careful, however, not
to fall into the trap that God has specially chosen him over others
to bestow His gift of healing.
1b. The Healed Healer: "I, along with everyone else, have all of
GodÕs qualities. We were all created equal. Differences in ability
are only temporary."
Healing perceives nothing in the healer that everyone else does not
share with him.
(T111; T-7.V.4:3)
It is inconceivable to the healed healer that God could create
differences amongst his children. God gave all of Himself to his
Creation. The Course states that we lack only one attribute and that
is the ability to create God. It is impossible for God to hold
anything back from his Creation. That differences of ability exist
amongst us in the world of the ego is equally clear, but this is
only temporary, for one day everyone will wake up to the glory of
who they really are. The Manual for Teachers describes the
characteristics of advanced Teachers of God and states: "Their
specialness is, of course, only temporary; set in time as a means of
leading out of time."(M8; M-4.1:5)
2a. The Unhealed Healer: "I want a fair exchange for the healing I
have given you."
The unhealed healer wants gratitude from his brothers, but he is not
grateful to them. That is because he thinks he is giving something
to them, and is not receiving something equally desirable in return.
(T112; T-7.V.7:1-2)
Thinking he possesses a special gift which his client does not, it
seems only reasonable to receive some kind of payment in exchange
for the healing. The healing given to the client appears to be a
one-way process and thus the unhealed healer feels he is owed
something in return. Although money is the usual form of exchange,
perhaps it will not be asked for, but something will be expected in
return. Some healers will ". . . utilise the relationship merely to
collect bodies to worship at their shrine, and this they regard as
healing". (P20; P3.II.9:8.) The last section of the Psychotherapy:
Purpose, Process and Practice pamphlet examines the issue of
payment. Jesus states that even the most advanced teacher of God has
some earthly needs and that there is nothing wrong with receiving
payment for the time expended by the healer. To this he adds the
caution, "One rule should always be observed: No one should be
turned away because he cannot pay." (P22; P3.III.6:1.)
2b. The Healed Healer: "I lose nothing by giving, I only gain."
Never forget you give but to yourself. Who understands what giving
means must laugh at the idea of sacrifice.
(W345; W-pI.187.6:1)
You learn first that having rests on giving, and not on getting.
(T102; T-6.V.C.6:1)
The cost of giving is receiving. Either it is a penalty from which
you suffer, or the happy purchase of a treasure to hold dear.
(T256; T-14.III.5:8-9)
The healed healer knows that to give love and peace to another is to
recognise that it must be within himself in the first place. Thus
his very giving strengthens his own recognition of what he must
already possess. This is in opposition to the thinking of the world
which believes that you must have less of something if you have
given some of it away. The gifts of God can only increase by giving
them away. Although the healer normally charges his client for his
time, he is also aware that "no one can pay for therapy, for healing
is of God and He asks for nothing". (P21; P-3.III.1:1)
The healed healer also recognises that he draws the clients whom he
needs, to help heal himself.
The therapist sees in the patient all that he has not forgiven in
himself, and is thus given another chance to look at it, open it to
re-evaluation and forgive it.
(P13; P-2.VI.6:3)
There are no accidents in our lives and everything that happens to
us has been agreed by us on some level, even if we are not aware of
this. The healer will be learning the same lessons of forgiveness
that the clients he draws to him are, albeit in other forms. Thus in
each healing session the healer is given another opportunity to heal
himself.
Who, then, is the therapist, and who is the patient? In the end,
everyone is both. He who needs healing must heal . . . Each patient
who comes to a therapist offers him a chance to heal himself.
(P13;P2.VII.1:1-3,7)
Knowing this, the healer understands that in every healing session
he gives, the exchange is always equal, as each has the same chance
to learn from the other.
3a. The Unhealed Healer: "I need to heal the
body/personality/situation of my client."
At worse, they (therapists) but make the body real in their own
minds, and having done so, seek for magic by which to heal the ills
with which their minds endow it. How could such a process cure? It
is ridiculous from start to finish.
(P8; P-2.IV.4:3-5)
Believing that the cause of the illness lies outside the mind of the
client, the unhealed healer seeks to bring about changes on the
level of form. Orthodox or alternative therapies are used on the
body, and counselling and advice are given to help change the
physical circumstances or situation of the client. Focusing on
healing the symptoms, rather than the cause in the mind, is an
example of what the Course calls 'magic'. Magic is the attempt to
change something on the wrong level Ñ that is, on the level of
effect instead of cause. The Course also states that there is
nothing wrong with magic and most of us need magic, for the fear in
our mind is too great to allow us to change our mind easily. If our
teeth are hurting, then it is wise to go to the dentist.
The unhealed healer believes that his special techniques and forms
of healing contain a certain power. There is no denying that certain
techniques can relieve or heal a bodily condition and for many
people, that is all they ask. However, "false healing rests upon the
bodyÕs cure, leaving the cause of illness still unchanged, ready to
strike again until it brings a cruel death in seeming victory".
(S17; S-3.II.6:1)
3b. The Healed Healer: "All sickness and suffering originates in our
mind. There are no exceptions. To try to heal something other than
the mind 'makes the error real'."
The acceptance of sickness as a decision of the mind, for a purpose
for which it would use the body, is the basis of healing. And this
is so for healing in all forms. A patient decides that this is so,
and he recovers. If he decides against recovery, he will not be
healed. Who is the physician? Only the mind of the patient himself.
(Ml7; M-5.II.2:1-6)
The healed healer understands that his clientÕs self-image is based
on sin, guilt and fear, and the anger and unforgiveness in his mind
has been projected onto his body. It is the healerÕs task gently to
remind the client that there is another way of looking at the world
and himself and that only forgiveness can heal an unforgiveness.
4a. The Unhealed Healer: "Although I do not feel the love of God, I
know what to do to heal you."
You do not understand how to overlook errors, or you would not make
them. It would be merely further error to believe either that you do
not make them, or that you can correct them without a Guide to
correction. And if you do not follow this Guide, your errors will
not be corrected . . . The way to undo them, therefore, is not of
you but for you.
(T157; T-9.IV.2:2-4,7)
Until we open to the love of God, we have only our ego as a guide.
The focus of the ego is always on the level of form and it is here
that it will teach us what to do. It will tell us that we can
acquire powerful techniques and practices which will heal others.
These techniques may treat the body successfully, but not the
unforgiveness in the mind. The unhealed healer prefers to rely on
his own judgement, feeling he knows what is best for his client.
In our scientifically oriented age, many believe that research into
better medicines and the development of high technology will bring a
breakthrough in treating the sick. However, as soon as one disease
is conquered, another rises to take its place. As long as we value
sickness, we will continue to create it. We will not turn to the
Holy Spirit for His help until we accept that the only things we are
good at is creating the problems and not the solutions.
4b. The Healed Healer: "Only the love of God heals. As I join with
you, the love and light of God fills our minds."
A therapist does not heal; he lets healing be. He can point to
darkness but he cannot bring light of himself, for light is not of
him. Yet, being for him, it must also be for his patient. The Holy
Spirit is the only Therapist. He makes healing clear in any
situation in which He is the Guide. You can only let Him fulfil His
function. He needs no help for this. He will tell you exactly what
to do to help anyone He sends to you for help, and will speak to him
through you if you do not interfere.
(T161; T-9.V.8:1-8)
The healed healer looks upon himself as a tool of communication for
the healing love of God. His task is to stop listening to his ego so
he may be guided by the Holy Spirit in what to say and do. In every
healing situation, his only task is to forgive himself in the
presence of the client, for this will allow the Holy Spirit to fill
the healerÕs mind with His presence.
Whatever technique or school of thought the healer works with will
be utilised by the Holy Spirit as a form to convey His Love and
acceptance to the client. It is not the healerÕs technique which
heals but the Love of God extended into the mind of the client. The
loving acceptance of the healer gives the client the opportunity to
Ôchoose againÕ and forgive instead of attack. The love of God,
present in the healer, shows the client that his perceived sins have
had no effect upon him, and thus the client has not sinned. If the
client accepts this, his guilt and the resulting physical and
psychological symptoms cease to exist. If the client is not ready to
take this opportunity to forgive himself, the healing has still
taken place. The Course explains this by saying the Holy Spirit
continues to hold this gift of love until the time comes when the
client is able to receive it.
Concluding part in the March 2015 newsletter
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End of Separation in the Timeless Now
Gail Brenner
Simple happiness. This is what Gail Brenner has discovered to be the
core of her being. As she writes, ÒI function in the world as a
person with a name, age, gender, and appearance, but what I really
am is peace.Ó Yet her road to liberation was anything but painless.
Here she shares some of the intense self-investigation that life
demanded for the grace of realizing lasting liberation from the
conditioned self.
There is no doubt about it . . . IÕm happy. Stop me at any
random moment, and there it is Ð the deepest acceptance, heart full,
primed for joy.
ItÕs not like IÕm grinning from ear to ear in every moment.
IÕm simply happy. I donÕt worry about the future or fret over
what is happening now. IÕm just here, present, awake to things
as they are. To say that I go with the flow is an
understatement.
I donÕt fight unhappiness so I can make sure that I stay happy Ð it
takes much less effort than that. I have seen that what I
thought was true about myself and the world is actually false, and
IÕve completely lost interest in it.
Anything personal Ð needs, demands, expectations, rules about how
the world should work, what people should do Ð I just donÕt give it
any attention. I function in the world as a person with a
name, age, gender, and appearance, but what I really am is peace.
I trust completely, which is why I donÕt need to rely on thoughts
anymore. I know that the intelligence and clarity of life is
perfect, and thatÕs where I live. Nothing personal to this
illusion of ÒmeÓ matters, although I enjoy playing in the world.
Suffering and Searching
For many years, I searched for an end to suffering. I put
together a functional life, but it was continually plagued by
anxiety, confusion, and relationship troubles. I tried the
conventional route of psychotherapy Ð fifteen years of it Ð but
trying to find a new perspective on stories from the past failed to
bring me the peace I was looking for. Same with my training as
a clinical psychologist.
I didnÕt want to just feel better. When I read in Buddhist
teachings that enduring peace was possible, somehow I believed it at
the core of my being. I didnÕt know how to find this peace,
but something in me said, ÒYes!Ó I wanted to consciously know
what I somehow already knew to be true.
The search took me to meditation retreats, many spiritual books, and
the most lovely and helpful teachers. I began to understand
that I was in resistance to life. I realized I was living a
mind-created, mind-directed construction of reality, consumed in
beliefs about how things should be. There was a constant level
of discontent because everything Ð people, situations, myself Ð was
judged to be not good enough. No wonder I wasnÕt happy.
I willingly put it all up for grabs and began to open to what was
actually appearing, which at the time were deeply painful emotions I
didnÕt know I had been running from.
Directly Meeting What Arises
Near the beginning, I spent a 10-day meditation retreat in tears
that felt like I was crying out lifetimes of sadness and
grief. Meditation offered relief from the confusion of
feelings, as I stopped resisting and allowed them to be, but it
wasnÕt enough. I had burning questions about the nature of
reality that kept me searching.
I was open to the next step on my path, and ended up with a group of
friends who exposed me to nondual teachings. I began to
understand the false identity created by attachment to stories and
feelings. I was on fire to see through all the ways that I
suffered and deeply know the truth of non-separation in my own
experience.
With much exploration, I found that the mental and emotional habits
I played out were motivated by a need to feel safe, and, with the
support of Eli Jaxon-Bear, Gangaji, and the Enneagram, I saw that
these were driven by fear. Oh, there was so much fear that had
gone unnoticed.
I learned to first recognize the fear, then allow it to be without
acting on it or pretending it wasnÕt there. There was a time
when I would stop whenever I experienced fear, close my eyes, and
simply allow it. Many times during the day, I sat on my couch
feeling physical tension, contracted chest and jaw muscles, and
shallow breathing. With great openness, I let these sensations
be without spinning in thought or wanting them to change or
lessen. It was joyful to fully welcome whatever arose.
It wasnÕt immediate, but over time, I realized that I felt less
stressed. I didnÕt worry so much about making the right
decision or trying to figure everything out. I was lighter,
happier, and so much more loving. One morning I woke up and,
much to my surprise, recognized that I hadnÕt been anxious for quite
some time.
I was feeling better, but I knew my understanding was not yet
complete. I continued to get caught in familiar emotional
reactions, and I was giving credence to the monologues that played
almost incessantly in my mind. I was still suffering and
available to whatever was next.
Along the way, there were beautiful, short-lived openings. I
hesitate to mention them because I donÕt want to create an
impression of what is supposed to happen or an idea of what
awakening is like. There was a time when the mind dropped away
revealing deeper peace than could ever be imagined, and another of
love pouring out of my eyes, meeting itself everywhere. But
these experiences didnÕt last, and I came to see them like any other
phenomena, simply arising and passing on.
Investigating Attachments
I had heard from many sources that thoughts are at the root of
suffering, so I found myself experimenting. One beautiful
afternoon, I was lying on a chaise lounge enjoying the sun, and the
mind was quiet. A thought appeared, and I noticed tension in
my body. I moved my attention away from the thought, and the
tension subsided. I switched back and forth a few times,
between thought and no-thought. I saw that the effort of thinking
created tension and that the tension released when thinking stopped.
This was an important discovery, but there was more. What I
realized is that thoughts themselves are not the problem.
Why? If you study a thought, you will see that it is an
insubstantial wisp of energy that leaves no trace. But if you
pay attention to it and repeat it in your mind, it comes to life
with meaning and substance. And this is the beginning of a
great deal of trouble.
It was amazing to realize that if I believed the content of a
thought, I was on the road to beliefs, expectations, shouldÕs and
should notÕs, emotional reactions, and all the accompanying
confusion. This is what I used to call Òmy life.Ó But
when attention rested as presence, thoughts could arise without
anything being disturbed. As my interest in thinking declined,
the objects that appeared were mostly unexplored physical sensations
and they were welcomed fully.
In my quest to understand the truth, I saw that I was not my habits
of worry or needing to control, as these eventually
diminished. So who am I? I let this essential question
sink into my consciousness for years looking for what is real and
true. I saw that everything I took myself to be was made up
and temporary. In reality, who I am is not a woman, daughter,
psychologist, or partner. These are just words. Taking
them away revealed that something very much alive was still present.
I thought about all the people in my life who are important to me,
and let the attachment to them fall away. I looked at every
single object in my home and felt the possibility of losing
it. I met the loss of money, relationship, career, place to
live, health, and the physical body itself. What if all of it
were to go? I could not find a way to not be at peace.
The Timeless Nature of Reality
At this point, I was still searching, ready to leave for Europe to
attend yet another retreat. Over dinner, my friend, Rupert
Spira, asked me what I was looking for by going to the
retreat. I answered, ÒStability in the understanding of what
doesnÕt come and go.Ó His fiery response: ÒThen put your
attention on what doesnÕt come and go.Ó
Rupert pointed me to the absolute nature of reality that is just
This that is here now, impossible to describe but fully alive.
It is life itself. He said a short sentence and showed me
that, without the mental concept of time, each sound of each word
has no time to take shape.
Suddenly, all ideas collapsed, and everything was seen to be
luminescent, shining with pure being. Yes, there was the
appearance of forms, but these were transparent, revealing only
aliveness bursting forth from everything. Everywhere I looked,
I saw love inseparable from me. I asked Rupert, ÒHow can you
not go around hugging everyone?Ó
The stability I was traveling to Europe to find had always been
here, but my mind had been too engaged with objects to notice.
Once it was seen that time is not absolutely real, no objects could
be real either. Only pure awareness remained, empty of
objects, but conscious, alive, and awake.
I realized that I had always been aware prior to any forms arising,
an understanding that made my life story mean nothing. It
seemed like people, events, and reactions appeared, but from the
perspective of awareness, these objects did not even exist unless I
applied the concept of time, gave them attention, and believed in
them. Prior to all of that activity, there is only pure
experiencing in the timeless now, with no objects and no separate
person experiencing anything. I am simply, effortlessly aware.
Later, the mind recognized that there had been an entity that I
called ÒmeÓ that was a knot of tension located behind my
forehead. I had been perceiving everything through this layer
of sensation, and when that disappeared, there was only unmediated,
unfiltered experience. Around that time, I was having a
conversation with a friend, and what was known was only pure
intimacy. Yes, there was the semblance of two people at a
kitchen counter speaking, hearing, smiling, but the forms were
barely seen, leaving only pure being and so much love.
What a relief to give up trying to get anything or make anything
happen. So much effort had been put into quieting thoughts and
eliminating painful emotions, trying to discover that which has
always been here. But who was doing all this efforting?
There is no one here. Awareness simply is and has no problem
with anything that appears in it. The experience of peace is
indescribable.
With all objects seen to their essence simultaneous with perceiving
them, so much joy bubbles over that it feels uncontainable.
Contained in what? It is simply the outpouring of life in its
natural state, unhindered by fears, needs, desires, and
identifications.
Living Happiness
And now life flows. There is working, eating, visiting with
friends, cleaning Ð what you would call a normal life. But
what is ordinary on the surface is absolutely extraordinary.
The deepest peaceÉa heart overflowing with happiness and
loveÉclarity about what needs to be doneÉliving happiness.
So who is it that says, ÒI am happy and peaceful?Ó
Fundamentally, the words are typed, and they simply appear on the
page arising from stillness. But there is the illusion of
form, the world as we commonly experience it, that is seen to be so
incredibly sweet. Just as each wave is inseparable from the
ocean, everything is known to be transparent, with the light of its
source, conscious awareness, shining radiantly. I see it in
the trees and birds outside my window, in the eyes of everyone I
meet, even in objects like cars and furniture. All me.
How could I not be brimming over?
Yes, I was looking for an end to suffering Ð and discovered
it. But that is an understanding from the personal
perspective. Looking through the eyes of awareness, there was
always only the timeless now.
Happiness isnÕt mysterious, and it is more available to you than you
could ever imagine. ItÕs right here. IÕm not special or
extraordinary for knowing this. If IÕve had one blessing it is
that the fire to know abiding happiness grabbed me and wouldnÕt let
go, and for that I am on my knees in gratitude. I am utterly
flattened by the grace of it all.
© Gail Brenner, 2013
Reprinted with permission from OneTheMagazine.com.
Gail Brenner, Ph.D. is a psychologist and author who joyfully shares
insights about discovering that suffering is optional. She is the
author of the forthcoming book, "The Way of Yes: Finding Peace and
Happiness Right at the Heart of Your Messy, Scary, Brilliant Life.Ó
You can find Gail at GailBrenner.com, where she offers articles,
conversation, and free guided audio meditations. You can also sign
up here to receive updates about her offerings.
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Preparing the Ground.
from Freedom of Being at ease with what is by Jan Frazier
http://janfrazierteachings.com
How does the longing to awaken express itself? The desire sits in
the body, in the heart, and wants to take form. It might blossom
into the idea of evolution, a destination, a journey.
But all of that assumes time exists.
There's another way the longing to awaken can take form. It's the
idea of preparing the ground.
What is it to prepare the ground? It's to till the earth that is
your self. To present to life a yielding surface, not an
impenetrable shield. It's to do this right now, and again now. So
that if the rain surprises you this moment, or this one, it will be
taken in.
The focus is not on tomorrow, but on the present. When you're
preparing the ground, you've forgotten about the idea of maybe -
someday.
You are not in charge of whether the rain falls. On the long list of
things that cannot be known or controlled is the matter of whether,
or when, that final thing will happen to rinse the dust from your
eyes.
But you can decline to score points for the other side. You can let
go of rigidity. You can opt not to tighten against this moment,
instead flooding it with presence.
Not to say you do this as a means to an end. Preparing the ground
must be an end in itself. It's done for its own sweet sake.
The rest must take care of itself if it will. If it will not, and
you've been cultivating presence for its own sake, then you'll
hardly notice whether awakening ever comes to stay.
Oddly, you may find that the closer you get to awakeness, the less
obsessed with it you are. When the orientation to your life distills
down to your orientation to this moment, when you're more truly
content with life as it unfolds, you've come to where it's not so
much on your mind, the question of whether you'll ever wake all the
way up. Not because you've met with despair along the road to
awakening, and have thrown up your hands. But because when you take
your eyes from some possible future, and let them settle on where
you are (now, now), then the idea of having someplace to go, some
condition to attain, is seen to be just that - an idea. A thought.
This moment is entirely captivating of attention. When you're less
focused on doing better, and more accepting of the truth of where
you are, you can fall out of love with the dream of tomorrow How
could there be someplace else to be but this, here?
The concept of future attainment becomes nonsensical once you really
get that this is all that's real.
Isn't that what the whole thing's about?
What better way to prepare the ground than to be alive to the
present? What could be a more fertile field for transformation?
This is something you really can do. Feeling yourself in the act of
being makes you available to awakening like nothing you could dream
of.
Who would awakening come to, if not one who's awake to this moment?
See how the question becomes silly when this moment is all there is,
ever? The question will I ever wake up? Laugh it off. Lift your face
to the sky.
What if it were to rain?
The difference between trying to awaken and preparing the ground is
the difference between strained mental/emotional effort and steady,
unflinching presence. Trying to wake up is hard work. Wheel
spinning, mostly. Hiding from yourself. It puts you in your head,
where you scrutinize your every move, where you rain judgment on
yourself, where you struggle to change yourself, and are forced to
see you're back where you were before. It's because of all this that
the spiritual journey is arduous, and exhausting, and largely
unproductive.
Preparing the ground conjures a delightful calm, an alert
receptivity, which is very different from a determined mission to
transform yourself, to reach a goal. Let go all of that in favor of
the simple, radical gesture of being here. Keep awareness on your
interior. Feel what you feel, that original response to a thing.
Feel life living itself through you. The gong reverberating deep in,
each moment. Be that. Yield to the force of that, to whatever life
delivers. Be conscious, unresisting, in devoted attendance on what's
here, within you and without.
Preparing the ground is about what you allow to be primary in your
moment - to - moment existence. It's letting attention be front and
center, always. There is something you can do, but it isn't a doing
so much as a being. The thing you want, which is to be awake, is to
be gotten to by being awake to this moment. The longed - for thing
is attained by doing - by being - the longed for thing. A person
might want it to be more complicated than that. It isn't.
Preparing the ground is allowing as how you don't know (much of
anything). lt's declining to let what's happening stick to you.
It's about defending against nothing, about yielding. Letting in the
sun and the rain, the wind and the hail. The scorching heat.
If attachment is happening, see it. If resistance is happening, see
it. If identification is happening, see it. If fear, if grasping, if
taking refuge in belief see it. Do not look away.
Be soft, present. Ceaselessly look at what's happening right now to
keep going the impression of there being a prison gate with a lock
on it.
Do not go looking for an experience, some intensity or great moment
of insight. Do not compare this moment with any other. The you that
existed then is not the you that exists now. Every exhale, let the
exhaling self cease to be. Feel the newly assembling presence come
in on the new breath. Feel life give birth to itself again and
again, in the ever - renewing awareness.
Be transparent, the moment passing through you and you through it.
Feel yourself being the moment. If something is uncomfortable, open
your arms to it. Don't grab onto it. It doesn't need to cling to you
if you don't hold on to it.
Never think the content of the moment must be grand, or peaceful, or
uplifting. What moment is not here? What now is not fit to be the
one that brings the great blessing? Do you think washing your hands
couldn't be it? Jacking up your car? Cleaning up broken glass?
Hanging your head over a toilet?
How many moments do you suppose there will be in this day, in what
remains of your life?
But this one: it's the one you have, the one you are. Tend it.
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from: Pure Silence: The Book
©2010 Mark McCloskey
Text Reprint of www.puresilence.org with Additions Introduction
17 - Leaving the Shores of Belief
To leave the safe shores of where we think we are and venture into
the wide expanse of the sea of silent awareness itself is a scary
proposition. The abyss of eternity is too vast, too unknown, too big
for many of us. Yet, leave the shores of tradition, familiarity and
belief, is what we must eventually do if we want to be totally and
permanently free, once and for all.
To allow for the realization of Pure Silence, the awareness of now,
the truth as it is, you must have a fresh unencumbered mind. This
means not only surrendering the surface clutter of worries,
anxieties, nostalgia, guilt, desires and fantasies (all most
difficult to let go of-but let go you must), but (and here's a real
biggie - ready or not) you must abandon all your traditional
beliefs, your concepts of religion, faith, hope and most especially
of God itself. Remember you are realizing that which is permanent,
eternal and present now, that which is beyond concept, beyond
fabric. We are looking together to see what not only holds the
fabric of existence itself together but what allows the seams and
stitches to be, what allows their very pattern.
For most of western humanity, God is merely a concept, a theology,
an ideal or some super being, someone to be placated, to be feared,
to be worshiped, to be prayed to. I'm sorry but to limit that which
is infinite love itself to some vestigial object, to a being, a
person, someone or thing we can name, provoke, control or possess is
absolute silliness. That which encompasses all being is Pure Silence
itself. That which is religion is merely some human words or
thoughts about that which is beyond word, thought and worship.
Following a religious tradition, what is it that we are doing? It
seems to me that we are merely following somebody else's insights,
whether that somebody is called Jesus or Buddha or Krishna or
Mohammed. All of these great men, women, deities, whatever, are
pointing to something beyond themselves, to something always here
and something that is not philosophical or theological, to that
which is within all, sustains all and is larger than all and that
which is experienced by all.
To realize Pure Silence now, you must abandon all thoughts for this
second, even the beliefs that you have cherished forever. Your
beliefs are merely thoughts and what's more they originally were
someone else's before they became your own. To see or know or
realize that which is infinity itself, we must become absolutely
naked. And in that complete, destitute and utter nakedness, perhaps
we may come to a simple glimmer of that which is now, that which is
you now, that which cannot be named or sublimated into a teaching, a
prayer or anything else.
This is a difficult thing to see because we believe in a thing
called faith and belief and tradition. We have been told by parents,
friends, churches, temples what the truth is. But I offer you, very
humbly, the truth cannot be contained by anyone, any thing, any
tradition, any belief. Truth, Pure Silence contains all of them.
Stop now, stop everything, surrender to this moment of peace, this
moment which is total freedom, total bliss. Just for one second,
really admit the truth that you know absolutely nothing, that you
are absolutely nothing. If you can realize that right now you will
taste the freedom, the essence of what every god, every sage,
messiah, prophet, teacher, poet, musician and scripture has been
pointing to since humanity crawled from the slime. You will taste
the freedom that you already are. And no one, no authority, no
system can challenge that or take that away from you. Pure Silence
is total gift to you right now.
You are that which is eternal, infinite and love itself. Just
breathe that right now in the gentle silence of here.
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Forget this world, forget this course, and come with wholly empty
hands unto your God. A Course in Miracles Lesson 189
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Forthcoming Workshops on A Course in Miracles
For up to date information on my workshops go to
http://www.acfip.org/fws.html
Germany 2015 Dates
Bonn 2015
6-7 June, 2015
10.00am to 6.000pm
Living the Guided Life
A Course in Miracles workshop.
This day my mind is quiet, to receive the Thoughts You offer me. And
I accept what comes from You, instead of from myself. I do not know
the way to You. But You are wholly certain. Father, guide Your Son
along the quiet path that leads to You. Let my forgiveness be
complete, and let the memory of You return to me.
A Course in Miracles. Lesson 291
The Course states that if we do not have inner peace and joy 24
hours a day we know nothing. Although we may be competent in using
the mind to live adequately in daily practical life, we need to
realise its limitations and open ourselves to hearing a wisdom
beyond the mind - what the Course calls the Holy Spirit, the Voice
for God. This Voice can be heard in many ways - an inner knowing,
words, a felt sense, etc.
We play our part by realising we do not know the way to peace and
are willing to be guided and allow our mind to become quieter
through forgiveness.
The workshop will explore what the Holy Spirit is, how to hear Its
voice, how to tell the difference between the ego's voice and the
Holy Spirit's, resistance to guidance, true prayer, the ladder of
prayer and attaining a quiet mind.
Exercises will be given to help quiet the mind and open it to
spirit's guidance.
No previous knowledge of A Course in Miracles required.
An Evening Introductory Talk - Fri 5th June 2015
7.30pm to 9.30pm
Contact:
Albert-Schweitzer-Haus
Beethovenallee 16
Bonn 53173
tel: 0228 - 36 47 37
http://www.albert-schweitzer-haus-bonn.de
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Freiburg 2015
June 12 6pm to 9pm
June 13 10.00am to 6.00pm
June 14 10.00am to 5.00pm
Living the Guided Life
A Course in Miracles workshop.
This day my mind is quiet, to receive the Thoughts You offer me. And
I accept what comes from You, instead of from myself. I do not know
the way to You. But You are wholly certain. Father, guide Your Son
along the quiet path that leads to You. Let my forgiveness be
complete, and let the memory of You return to me.
A Course in Miracles. Lesson 291
The Course states that if we do not have inner peace and joy 24
hours a day we know nothing. Although we may be competent in using
the mind to live adequately in daily practical life, we need to
realise its limitations and open ourselves to hearing a wisdom
beyond the mind - what the Course calls the Holy Spirit, the Voice
for God. This Voice can be heard in many ways - an inner knowing,
words, a felt sense, etc.
We play our part by realising we do not know the way to peace and
are willing to be guided and allow our mind to become quieter
through forgiveness.
The workshop will explore what the Holy Spirit is, how to hear Its
voice, how to tell the difference between the ego's voice and the
Holy Spirit's, resistance to guidance, true prayer, the ladder of
prayer and attaining a quiet mind.
Exercises will be given to help quiet the mind and open it to
spirit's guidance.
No previous knowledge of A Course in Miracles required.
Contact:
Margarete Sennekamp
Winterhaldenweg 4,
79856 Hinterzarten,
Tel./Fax: 07652-917530
email: M.Sennekamp@t-online.de
www.Sophia-Institut.de
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intervention for personal problems. Please see the Contacts section
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BOOKS AND AUDIO MATERIALS FOR SALE - by Michael Dawson
New teaching and healing materials - eBooks and downloadable MP3s:
Ebooks:
1. Healing the Cause -A Path of Forgiveness.
Inspired by A Course in Miracles.
This is the eBook version of the paper back.
2. A Course in Miracles - Explanations of Major Themes
New book in eBook format
3. Forgiveness - A Path to Inner Peace.
Inspired by A Course in Miracles
This is the eBook version of the paper back.
The eBook versions can be read on Kindle, iPad, Microsoft eReader,
Nook, PDF readers (Mac and PC) and most eBook readers.
For more details and how to purchase please visit:
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Downloadable Mp3s:
1. Healing the Cause: Self-Help Exercises 1
This MP3 contains the identical four exercises as the CD
2. Healing the Cause: Self-Help Exercises 2
This MP3 contains the identical four exercises as the CD
3. Healing the Cause: 3 Self-Help Exercises in English with German
translation
This MP3 contains the identical three exercises as the CD
For more details and how to purchase please visit:
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Books:
Healing the Cause - A Path of Forgiveness. Findhorn Press 1994
Also available in German, Romanian, French, Dutch, Spanish and
Portuguese.
The Findhorn Book of Forgiveness. Findhorn Press. 2003
Also available in German, French, Polish and Romanian.
For more details and how to purchase please visit:
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MP3s (see above) and CDs:
Healing the Cause:
Since 1986 I have been conducting healing workshops in the UK and
abroad, and have continually experimented to find healing and
forgiveness exercises that are effective. I have found that a
particular exercise can be effective for one person but not another.
Accordingly, I was led to develop a series of exercises. Over the
years workshop participants asked if these exercises could be put
onto audio cassettes and CDs so they could repeat them. This has
resulted in the Healing the Cause - Exercise series - Tapes 1 to 4
(2 exercises on each tape) and CD1 and 2 (4 exercises on each CD)
CD - 3 Healing Exercises in English with German translation. 10 Euro
Content:
Ex1. Forgiving Ourselves.
Ex2. Changing Perception and Finding peace.
Ex3. Changing Perception of another - exercise for two people.
These exercises are similar to existing exercises already available
on CDs but are translated into German.
Workshops:
1. Three Steps of Forgiveness.
This workshop concentrates on the process of forgiveness from the
perspective of A Course in Miracles. Includes 3 healing exercises.
Recorded at the Annual Miracle Network Conference in London,
November 2001. 1 hour 12 mins. One CD
2. Finding and Eliminating the Blocks to Receiving Guidance.
This talk investigates what stops us hearing the guidance that is
ever present in our lives. Recorded at the Annual Miracle Network
Conference in London, October 20001 hour. One CD
For more details and how to purchase please visit:
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INSPIRATIONAL QUOTATIONS
About three times a week I send a short quotation from some
spiritual teacher or poet to people who have requested some
uplifting thoughts. I have included some below. If you wish I can
add your name to the email list.
How long, O Son of God, will you maintain the game of sin? Shall we
not put away these sharp-edged children's toys? How soon will you be
ready to come home? Perhaps today? There is no sin. Creation is
unchanged. Would you still hold return to Heaven back? How long, O
holy Son of God, how long?
A Course in Miracles Lesson 250
Do understand that you are destined for enlightenment.
Co-operate with your destiny, don't go against it, don't thwart it.
Allow it to fulfil itself.
All you have to do is to give attention to the obstacles created by
the foolish mind.
Nisargadatta Maharaj
I Am That
When you listen to the voice in your head, that
is to say, do not judge. You'll soon realize: there
is the voice, and here I am listening to it, watching
it. This I am realization, this sense of your own
presence, is not a thought. It arises from beyond
the mind.
Eckhart Tolle
The Power of Now
One is more likely to awaken through surrender than through seeking
to waken. The effort to awaken is the effort of ego, whereas to
surrender is to give up all efforts and to place oneself in the
hands of a vast force that is more powerful than any realization of
non duality.
When one finally gives up one's futile attempts to make reality
conform to one's own wishes, and allows it to unfold on its own
terms, all the energy that was tied up in foolish attempts to
manipulate the universe is freed up.
Mariana Caplan
Halfway Up the Mountain - The Error of Premature Claims to
Enlightenment
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