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Part 5

ARTICLES INDEX

1.  Self-worth and sinlessness

2. The end of seeking

3. Requirements for Spiritual Awakening

4. Nisargadatta Maharaj's Spiritual Awakening
from I Am That compared to A Course in Miracles


1. Self-worth and sinlessness

Many of us have been told, early in our lives, to make something of ourselves. We may be encouraged to perform well at school, academically or in the area of sports. Parents and friends are proud of us when we do well, especially if we excel in our studies and pursuits.

As we grow older this process continues. Now it moves to the area of our workplace. We are often encouraged to be ambitious and do well, and rise in our jobs. There is an implication in all of this that we are not perfect to start with. Otherwise, why should we try to improve what is already perfect?

This world evaluates us by how we look, how we perform, what our bodies and personalities can achieve. But what if our true reality is not the body or the personality? What if our true reality is actually perfect? What if the world has focused entirely on the wrong area and forgotten the spiritual reality of our existence?

If we are made in the image of God, and God is a perfect, eternal, formless spirit, then we too must share in those same attributes. A creator can only create like itself. Can we improve on what God has created?

Salvation requires the acceptance of but one thought - you are as God created you, not what you made of yourself. Whatever evil you may think you did, you are as God created you. Whatever mistakes you made, the truth about you is unchanged. Creation is eternal and unalterable. Your sinlessness is guaranteed by God. You are and will forever be exactly as you were created. Light and joy and peace abide in you because God put them there.
A Course in Miracles Lesson 93

If we are eternally perfect there is no need to seek improvement. To do that is simply arrogance of the ego, which always thinks it knows better.

Escape today the chains you place upon your mind when you perceive salvation here. For what you value you make part of you as you perceive yourself. All things you seek to make your value greater in your sight limit you further, hide your worth from you, and add another bar across the door that leads to true awareness of your Self. 
A Course in Miracles  Lesson 128

This statement is so very different from what we've heard from the world. The Course asks us not to improve ourselves, otherwise it will get in the way of discovering who we really are. Attempts to make ourselves better will actually increase the delay before we truly realise who we are. So if we are perfect there is no need to seek improvement. The only thing we could seek to improve is our ego.

Every ego can be modified and people are very interested in improving their egos. One only has to walk through our bookshops, focusing on the New-Age section and self development, and there will be a host of them offering to improve your ego - to make it more powerful, less fearful, more efficient, to be loved more, to succeed, to achieve power - the titles go on and on. Meanwhile the acceptance of our spiritual reality is waiting to be welcomed. While we seek to 'improve' our egos it must wait, until we see the falsity of our approach.

As children grow up they need to learn how to fit into this world, their egos have to be developed otherwise they would simply be autistic, and live in their own self-created world. At the beginning of our lives, it is normal and natural for the ego to develop so children can fit into society, leave home, go to work, make a living, etc. For those who have found they are unable to do this, a case can certainly be made for the need to develop the ego. If you find you have a great fear just trying to leave your house in the morning, then it is obvious that you need help to strengthen your ability to function in daily life. However, if you can go about your daily life in a reasonably competent way, then the ego is sufficient.

In time we may come to tire of the material values of this world. We may start start to challenge the value of ambition, trying to get to the top of our jobs, and we might start to explore spiritual values. But further traps await us here. We may wish to look good in the eyes of others, by doing 'good works', becoming teachers, healers, write books, start centres, etc. There is nothing wrong with these things in themselves; rather, we need to look at the motive behind why we want to do these things. Do we see these activities as our particular paths of forgiveness, and therefore not special in any way, or has our ego become more subtle in its desire for recognition and praise. Have we simply moved from having a materialistic ego to a ‘spiritual’ ego?

Your worth is not established by teaching or learning. Your worth is established by God. As long as you dispute this everything you do will be fearful, particularly any situation that lends itself to the belief in superiority and inferiority.
A Course in Miracles T-4.I.7.

The Course does not ask us to perform good works, to go out and heal or teach or help the poor, unless we are guided by the Holy Spirit that these are to be our classrooms of forgiveness. The Course gives no guidance on behaviour. Instead, it asks us why we are doing it. Purpose is everything. Our only purpose is to wake up from the dream of separation from God. The earth is our classroom of forgiveness, nothing more.

The course continues:

........  Again, nothing you do or think or wish or make is necessary to establish your worth. This point is not debatable except in delusions. Your ego is never at stake because God did not create it. Your spirit is never at stake because He did.
A Course in Miracles T-4.I.7.

In the Text of the Course there is a section entitled “I Need do Nothing.” In this powerful section we are told to lay the importance of our ego aside, and thus create a space in our mind that the Holy Spirit can enter. Here He would guide us and quickly wake us up to our spiritual reality. Doing nothing is not to be inactive and lazy but to do things with Spirit as our guide and not the ego.

The work that we are guided to do may indeed be looked upon by the world as those of good works, but we see them simply as classrooms of forgiveness. The Course reminds us:

You are as God created you. All else but this one thing is folly to believe. In this one thought is everyone set free. In this one truth are all illusions gone. In this one fact is sinlessness proclaimed to be forever part of everything, the central core of its existence and its guarantee of immortality. You are as God created you. All else but this one thing is folly to believe. In this one thought is everyone set free. In this one truth are all illusions gone. In this one fact is sinlessness proclaimed to be forever part of everything, the central core of its existence and its guarantee of immortality.
A Course in Miracles Lesson 191

The implication of this passage is that the ego does not exist. This is the thought form that most of us have identified with all of our lives and this is the thought that is asking to improve itself. The ego exists in a dream world, and so we can be deluded into trying to improve our dream. But the Course reminds us that we can leave the dream, as we are already perfect. There is nothing we have to do to improve ourselves because we are still as God created us.

Your sinlessness is guaranteed by God. Over and over this must be repeated, until it is accepted. It is true. Your sinlessness is guaranteed by God. Nothing can touch it, or change what God created as eternal. The self you made, evil and full of sin, is meaningless. Your sinlessness is guaranteed by God, and light and joy and peace abide in you.
A Course in Miracles Lesson 93

So our true identity, and the identity of all living things, cannot be changed or attacked. No one can take our peace away and nor can the world give us peace. We are already perfection, waiting to be revealed and accepted, when we are ready to allow it. While we seek to improve ourselves, to improve our image in other's eyes, we delay the time of this acceptance.

Only the ego can be improved, not what God created. So powerful is this illusion of separation from God, so powerful our belief in the ego and our desire to remain separate, that we must allow help from outside our deluded thought system, from outside the illusion we believe we are in.

Jesus states in the Course that if we believe we are a body we are insane. Thus we all live in an insane asylum that we are not normally aware of. We ask other people in the asylum, who are as insane as we are, what we should do to become more happy. There are many there to tell us.

What we sorely need is help from outside the asylum, from one who is sane and who could come in and point us in a quite a different direction. In the Course we have Jesus or the Holy Spirit as our guide waiting until the end of time to wake us up from the dream so we may remember that we are still as God created us.

If you are willing to renounce the role of guardian of your thought system and open it to me, I will correct it very gently and lead you back to God.
A Course in Miracles T4.I.4:7

We have readily available help to wake up from the dream of separation and restore our spiritual reality back into our awareness. Just think of the time this would now save us as we give up our own deluded efforts to find peace.

What a relief to finally stop worrying about what other people think of us. It's not that we do not listen to what they say as their feedback can be helpful to us. But now we are no longer trying to make something of ourselves. Now we are allowing ourselves to be guided to the realisation of who we really are, what God has created.

Deep within you is everything that is perfect,
ready to radiate through you and out into the world.
A Course in Miracles Lesson 41

2. The End of seeking.

Love waits on welcome, not on time,
Release is given you the instant you desire it.
Innocence is not of your making.
It is given you the instant you would have it.

 A Course in Miracles T-13.VII.9:7, T-18.VII.4:3,T-15.IV.9:3-4   




Sometimes when I am waking in the morning, I may receive some helpful advice.  It's that time when one is partly awake, and partly asleep. The thinking mind hasn't fully started up, and this seems to give spirit a chance to get in. It seems spirit will take any chance that it is given! Recently, I was given a picture of the spiritual seeker on his journey back home. He was walking along this very long path, which eventually led to the top of a mountain. He was tired, but kept on moving. However, as he was moving along the path, there was a hand reaching down from above his head. This hand was trying to lift him up, into peace and joy. But the seeker could not see this hand, for he always had his eyes on the distant goal of the mountaintop. One day the seeker was so exhausted by his search he stopped on the path. He had surrendered, he had given up his search. It was then he looked up and saw the hand above him. To his amazement the hand reached down and lifted him back to heaven.

Why wait for Heaven? Those who seek the light are merely covering their eyes. The light is in them now. Enlightenment is but a recognition, not a change at all.
A Course in Miracles Lesson188

 When people cannot find peace and happiness following the goals of the material world, they often start a spiritual search. After all, if you don't search how can you find it?  When I was in my 20s, I lived in London and had access to some of the best spiritual bookshops there were. I felt if I looked long enough, I would find a book that had the truth in it. I found that this searching was both pleasurable and exciting.  All I had to do was follow this path and it will eventually lead me to the truth that I was seeking.

One of the teachers I was drawn to was Jiddu Krishnamurti. I had been following Buddhism for about five years before I first came across his books. As I was reading his first book I was delighted to see him putting organised religions into the dustbin.  But then he put Buddhism into the dustbin! I found that very disturbing, as this thought system had given me security. Krishnamurti seemed to be against all forms of organised thought. Later I was to read the following:

I maintain that Truth is a pathless land, and you cannot approach it by any path whatsoever, by any religion, by any sect. That is my point of view, and I adhere to that absolutely and unconditionally. Truth, being limitless, unconditioned, unapproachable by any path whatsoever, cannot be organised; nor should any organisation be formed to lead or coerce people along any particular path. If you first understand that, then you will see how impossible it is to organise a belief.

From part of the speech made by Jiddu Krishnamurti in 1929 when he dissolved the Order of the Star (his own organisation).

A path can only lead to a fixed object. What if truth is not fixed? What if truth is ever new? Our minds dislike things that cannot be labelled and categorised and nicely ordered.  Minds like to be in control, it makes them feel secure.

Recently I received the following guidance:

We use our concepts of God to direct and redirect ourselves and the direction of our lives. It takes humans a long time to realize that there is no concept for God and no direction to Him. The oneness we crave dissolves the moment we set ourselves on a path. To stop in the oneness requires dissolution of ourselves, so we keep moving on our path hastily.

This guidance made it very plain that our identification with the ego - the idea that we are separate - is kept safely intact whilst we pursue the seeming noble search for God.  As I get older I have a great respect for the cleverness and the subtlety of the ego.  As the Course points out:
…. the ego's maxim, (is) "Seek but do not find"  T-16.V.6:5

To seek something we must know what we are seeking, otherwise how would we recognise it? Truth is not objective, is not "out there". People who spiritually awaken, who have lost a sense of personal identity, are often surprised by what they find. It is not as they imagined.

The mind cannot know truth; it's not designed for that purpose. The mind is a wonderful tool for our day-to-day living. You could not be reading this now without its help.  The American teacher Adyashanti refers to this type of mind as the "toolbox mind".  If you want to study science then you will need to reach into your toolbox mind and get out the tools of reason and logic. You won't get far without them. If we try to use the toolbox mind to find truth, we will condemn ourselves to a lifetime of fruitless search and desperation.

I think most people who desire to discover their spiritual reality will embark on a spiritual search.  I certainly did.  By the time I was in my 30s I had collected about 1500 spiritual books.  My mind had become a spiritual library.  Books can be very helpful at the beginning, but at some point they become a block.  This also applies to A Course in Miracles, as we can see from the following quotation from the Course:

Simply do this: Be still, and lay aside all thoughts of what you are and what God is; all concepts you have learned about the world; all images you hold about yourself. Empty your mind of everything it thinks is either true or false, or good or bad, of every thought it judges worthy, and all the ideas of which it is ashamed. Hold onto nothing. Do not bring with you one thought the past has taught, nor one belief you ever learned before from anything. Forget this world, forget this course, and come with wholly empty hands unto your God.
Lesson 189

Perhaps many of us do need to seek so we can discover that it's fruitless and put it aside. The sooner we can see the trap of spiritual seeking the happier we will be.

This is the irony, the great cosmic joke, the great secret of "enlightenment." When the person who searches for enlightenment dissolves, then and only then is the object of the search revealed - having been obscured all along by the "me" who wanted it.

The discovery that "personal enlightenment" is a myth can be received as quite a shock. From my own experience I can verify that the mind and personality does not happily embrace this discovery when it is first glimpsed, for it makes one look somewhat ridiculous. All the searching, all the practicing, all the trying to "get" it, is seen as worthless, is seen as having per perpetuated the illusion of "me," as having obscured what was and is already here, what all this striving and practicing is occurring in-one's own limitless Self.
Surprised By Grace by Amber Terrell

If we are honest with ourselves we will see that we want to attain enlightenment. We want to add enlightenment to ourselves. I am now enlightened we say. In the Bible this is referred to as sitting on the right-hand side of God. Notice however that you are still there. Now it's you and God together in heaven. This is very comforting to the ego, because the ego is still alive. The ego has attained enlightenment. But enlightenment is the absence of the ego! Only when you, the me story, is gone can your spiritual reality dawn upon you.  This is why we keep moving on the spiritual path. It's as if God can't hit a moving target.  Seeking truth can become a game and we are happy to seek as long as we don't find it! We are no longer a material seeker but are now a spiritual seeker.

Once you forget yourself, God remembers you: once you've become His slave, then you are free.
Rumi

One is more likely to awaken through surrender than through seeking to waken. The effort to awaken is the effort of ego, whereas to surrender is to give up all efforts and to place oneself in the hands of a vast force that is more powerful than any realization of non duality. When one finally gives up one’s futile attempts to make reality conform to one’s own wishes, and allows it to unfold on its own terms, all the energy that was tied up in foolish attempts to manipulate the universe is freed up.
Halfway up the Mountain - the Error of Premature Claims to Enlightenment by Mariana Caplan. Hohm Press 1999

All the above leads to the eventual conclusion that if you want to avoid truth, seek it!  It is the ego's arrogance that thinks it knows the way to God. It first decides what God is, and then designs a path to Him.  The ego is happy for us to work with A Course in Miracles for it can make our desired goal appear a long way off and thus ensure we will remain faithful to the ego and its advice.  The Course, however, thinks otherwise.

We don't know the way to God.

From Lesson 189

Is it not He Who knows the way to you? You need not know the way to Him. Your part is simply to allow all obstacles that you have interposed between the Son and God the Father to be quietly removed forever. God will do His part in joyful and immediate response. Ask and receive.

We do not remove the obstacles, instead we become aware of the obstacles and agree to release them. These are the first two steps of forgiveness, the third is automatic - the removal of the guilt by spirit.

But do not make demands, nor point the road to God by which He should appear to you.

Our demand of God is to make us happy here in the ego's world. We resent God for not giving us what we want especially if we think we are faithfull students of His Course

The way to reach Him is merely to let Him be. For in that way is your reality proclaimed as well.

We must forget about trying to change God into the one we want - a God who treats us special. Humility is needed - we have been wrong about everything - we know nothing about how to be in a constant state of peace and quiet joy.

And so today we do not choose the way in which we go to Him. But we do choose to let Him come.

We realise we have made a mistake in letting the ego be our teacher.

And with this choice we rest. And in our quiet hearts and open minds, His Love will blaze its pathway of itself. What has not been denied is surely there, if it be true and can be surely reached. God knows His Son, and knows the way to him. He does not need His Son to show Him how to find His way.

Father, we do not know the way to You. But we have called, and You have answered us. We will not interfere. Salvation's ways are not our own, for they belong to You.

We need to admit we have been wrong and we know nothing of the way to God. Our job is to find the obstacles to God and let them be removed.

What can we do?

If seeking is going to get us nowhere what can we do?  To we just give up? Is there anything we can seek? Yes! It's not the truth, but the obstacles to truth.

An ancient Zem master nicely summed it up when he said;

Do not seek the truth, simply cease cherishing illusions

The Course states it this way:

Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all of the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.
It is not necessary to seek for what is true, but it is necessary to seek for what is false.
T-16.IV.6:1-2 

So here we are back on the seekers path! However, now we are seeking for something completely different. We are now seeking all that blocks the awareness to truth, love, joy and beauty.  Thank God we can give up the search for the truth! That's what we already are. No need to find love, that's how we are created. What a relief!

All that is asked of you is to make room for truth. You are not asked to make or do what lies beyond your understanding. All you are asked to do is let it in; only to stop your interference with what will happen of itself; simply to recognize again the presence of what you thought you gave away.
T-21.II.7:6-8

Of course, for our egos it's much more pleasant to search for truth somewhere in the future.  Searching the obstacles to truth does not sound so glamorous. It's uncomfortable to look within and find anger, guilt, shame, fear, lack of self-worth, and a whole collection of unpleasant thoughts that the ego would want to deny and project onto the world.

Conflict must be resolved. It cannot be evaded, set aside, denied, disguised, seen somewhere else, called by another name, or hidden by deceit of any kind, if it would be escaped. It must be seen exactly as it is, where it is thought to be, in the reality which has been given it, and with the purpose that the mind accorded it. For only then are its defenses lifted, and the truth can shine upon it as it disappears.
Lesson 333
 
"Lead us not into temptation" means "Recognize your errors and choose to abandon them by following my guidance."
T-1.III.4:7

The truth, peace and joy we all crave is there and will be revealed to us when we do our part.  We cannot find this by our personal striving. Humility teaches us that we need help from outside our ego's thought system. The ego wants to do everything by itself as it seeks to stay in control.

In the Course Jesus states that if you think you are a body then you are insane. The insane need help from the sane. We have that help and is just waiting for us to ask. It won't go against our free will. We do not even have to heal the obstacles we find. That will be done for us by spirit.

Do not hide suffering from His sight, but bring it gladly to Him. Lay before His eternal sanity all your hurt, and let Him heal you. Do not leave any spot of pain hidden from His light, and search your mind carefully for any thoughts you may fear to uncover. For He will heal every little thought you have kept to hurt you and cleanse it of its littleness, restoring it to the magnitude of God.
T-13.III.7:3-6

We are being asked turn our daily life into a classroom of forgiveness. The seeker's path continues, and now it's in the mirror of relationships. Our daily interactions will often bring up what's unhealed in our minds.  Underneath our unforgiveness lies the truth we have been seeking. It simply needs to be uncovered by forgiving the judgement that overlays it. Putting it simply, forgiveness is looking without judgement at our egos and other people's egos.  We are not being asked to change our egos or other people's egos. That would be to make them real. Nor are we being asked to love our egos for that would repeat the same error. The ego is nothing but a thought that we still cherish. That thought is that we prefer separation and being a special individual to unity or oneness with all. However, it's only in unity we will find what we crave for.

The speed at which we return to the awareness of our spiritual reality is up to us. We could have it now if we wanted to.  We need only let go the hand of the ego and hold the hand of the Holy Spirit.  This would mean giving up our victimhood, judgement, justified anger, the desire to blame others, the desire to be separate and our individuality.  Most of us are not ready to give up all that at once. Jesus is very aware of that and is happy to lead us step-by-step on our forgiveness path. To feel guilty that we still want to hold onto these "gifts of the ego" is to allow the ego to come back in again through a back door in our minds. Jesus asks us to gently smile at the ego and not to take it seriously.

With a sigh of relief we can now take off our truth seeker's hat and put it down.  We still have something to seek, but it will be easy to find! As we notice these daily obstacles and learn to gently smile at them they will dissolve.  And then the light that is underneath them will start to show through. This will encourage us to follow the path of forgiveness. No need to think anything more about enlightenment.  That will come in God's time.

Grow as the flower grows, unconsciously, but eagerly anxious to open its soul to the air. So must you press forward to open your soul to the Eternal. But it must be the Eternal that draws forth your strength and beauty, not desire of growth.
For in the one case you develop in the luxuriance of purity: in the other you harden by the forcible passion for personal stature.
Light on the Path



3. Requirements for Spiritual Awakening


1. Desire awakening above all
2. Don't get in its way
3. Do not prepare yourself
4. Our job

The following are some of the more important requirements for spiritual awakening found in A Course in Miracles.

1.  Desire awakening above all.

What The Ego Desires.
In this world, you believe you are sustained by everything but God. Your faith is placed in the most trivial and insane symbols; pills, money, "protective" clothing, influence, prestige, being liked, knowing the "right" people, and an endless list of forms of nothingness that you endow with magical powers. 
A Course in Miracles. Lesson 50

In the above lesson, Jesus lists the things that most people in the world desire and pursue. This is where salvation is thought to exist. We think that if only we had our health, enough money and nice place to live with friends to love us we would be happy. If we look at where we place most of our time and energy, we will soon see where we believe our salvation is. As that great teacher Nisargadatta Maharaj once said, if you are content to accept the lesser you will never go for the greater.

True Desire.
How much do you want salvation?  It will give you the real world, trembling with readiness to be given you.  The eagerness of the Holy Spirit to give you this is so intense He would not wait, although He waits in patience.  Meet His patience with your impatience at delay in meeting Him.  Go out in gladness to meet with your Redeemer, and walk with Him in trust out of this world, and into the real world of beauty and forgiveness. T-17.II.8   T354

The aim of A Course in Miracles is  for us to attain an inner peace and quiet joy that the world cannot give or take away.  This is what the Course calls the real world.  We could have it now if we truly wanted it. There is no need for us to suffer, sacrifice or  atone for our “sins”,  we simply need to want it above all else. If we do not experience the real world it is because we prefer something else. We desire separation rather than union. But only in the experience of union or oneness with all living things will we experience that inner peace and joy. Our desire to be separate and special individuals blocks our spiritual awakening.  In the text of A Course in Miracles there is a section on the Obstacles to Peace. The first obstacle to peace is that we don’t want it! To experience peace is to end the separation, and most of us deeply desire to be individuals.

Fear of awakening.
 We fear to awaken to our spiritual reality.  We believe the cost will be too high. What we fear is the loss of our identity, our specialness and our individuality. The actual cost will be  the end of our illusions.

You are more afraid of God than of the ego, and love cannot enter where it is not welcome. T-13.III.5:4

The unforgiving mind is torn with doubt, confused about itself and all it sees; afraid and angry, weak and blustering, afraid to go ahead, afraid to stay, afraid to waken or to go to sleep, afraid of every sound, yet more afraid of stillness; terrified of darkness, yet more terrified at the approach of light. Lesson 121

The only thing that will give us the peace we desire is to awaken from the dream of separation from God. To wake up is a decision that we must make. When we start to see that nothing in this world can give us the peace we desire we are ready to work with forgiveness, confront our fears and start the journey back home.

The holy instant (spiritual awakening) is the result of your determination to be holy. It is the answer. The desire and the willingness to let it come precede its coming. You prepare your mind for it only to the extent of recognizing that you want it above all else. T-18.IV.1:1-4 

Love waits on welcome, not on time, and the real world is but your welcome of what always was. T-13.VII.9:7 

Release is given you the instant you desire it. T-18.VII.4:3 


2. Don't get in its way

All that is asked of you is to make room for truth.  You are not asked to make or do what lies beyond your understanding.  All you are asked to do is let it in ; only to stop your interference with what will happen of itself; simply to recognize again the presence of what you thought you gave away. T-21.II.7

 I had a friend once who was rather impatient. When we went out for a drive together I first had to unlock the passenger door. He had a habit of trying to open the door while I was trying to release the door lock from inside the car. His action invariably led to the door re-locking in itself. I had to ask him to please stand back and do nothing while I let him in.

You make it difficult, because you insist there must be more that you need do. You find it difficult to accept the idea that you need give so little, to receive so much. And it is very hard for you to realize it is not personally insulting that your contribution and the Holy Spirit's are so extremely disproportionate. You are still convinced that your understanding is a powerful contribution to the truth, and makes it what it is. Yet we have emphasized that you need understand nothing. T-18.IV.7.

In our daily lives we believe that the harder we work, or the more that we study, the greater the reward we will receive. Generally speaking, this is true.  If we carry this attitude onto our spiritual path we soon run into trouble.  Certainly effort is required. To practise non-judgemental awareness, or forgiveness, and asking within for help requires earnestness.  However, if we decide to add more to that our ego has taken over the direction of our spiritual practice.  In the Course Jesus states that if we believe our reality is a body then that is a clear indication we are insane. How can the insane possibly know the way back to heaven? Our job is to realize that we know nothing, to become as little children, and allow ourselves to be led home. And each one’s path is not the same as another.

(There is, however, no set pattern, since) training is always highly individualized. M-9.1:5 

Is it not He Who knows the way to you? You need not know the way to Him. Your part is simply to allow all obstacles that you have interposed between the Son and God the Father to be quietly removed forever. God will do His part in joyful and immediate response. Ask and receive. Lesson 189

 In this last quote we are told what our work is, and also what our work is not.  We are asked to become aware of the obstacles to peace and agree to release them.  This release or healing is not done by us, but by the Holy Spirit.  These are the three stages of forgiveness. Firstly, we recognize the problem is in ourselves and not in the world. Secondly, we decide we no longer want this problem even though it may well have been our identity. With this decision, the third and automatic stage of healing takes place.


But do not make demands, nor point the road to God by which He should appear to you. Lesson 189 cont.

 Our temptation here is to ask Jesus or the Holy Spirit to make us happy in our ego's world. Our prayers can be mistakenly directed to the welfare, comfort and security of our body.  The Course tells us that the highest prayer is to learn forgiveness. Or we may design our own spiritual practice and insist God follows our path to us.

The way to reach Him is merely to let Him be. For in that way is your reality proclaimed as well. And so today we do not choose the way in which we go to Him. But we do choose to let Him come. And with this choice we rest. And in our quiet hearts and open minds, His Love will blaze its pathway of itself. What has not been denied is surely there, if it be true and can be surely reached. God knows His Son, and knows the way to him. He does not need His Son to show Him how to find His way. Lesson 189 cont.

 In the text of A Course in Miracles is a section on the Laws of Chaos. They describe the insanity of the ego’s thought system. Here we are told that the ego in its arrogance has decided what God is and what it thinks of us, its wayward children.  It describes an angry, and vengeful God which will need to be appeased by suffering, penance and sacrifice. This God often appears in the old Testament of the Bible. The guilt of the seeming separation from God, that we all carry, is easily triggered by these statements and can lead to us creating a painful and suffering spiritual path to God.  The Course insists that God has never judged us for we have never truly sinned. The world we appear to be living in is a dream or more accurately a nightmare. Nothing real happens in dreams. The Spirit in us is eternal and cannot be changed or damaged  and thus sin is impossible. Heaven will be returned to our awareness just as soon as we we want it.

Father, we do not know the way to You. But we have called, and You have answered us. We will not interfere. Salvation's ways are not our own, for they belong to You. L189

To come to the knowledge that you have not, you must go by a way that you know not.  (St. John of the Cross. Ascent of Mount Carmel )

Reading the lives of saints and mystics may have its place in our lives, though it would be better if we had never read them. But a million times more important is our awareness of every interior movement and change, even the most subtle, because this is where it is at, this is where the Spirit is continually moving us, transforming and informing us in its own particular way. This is where we will learn everything we ever need to know, and to do this, we must clear our minds of everything else.
Bernadette Roberts - The Path to No-Self


3. Do not prepare yourself

 Following on from what has been previously written, it now becomes apparent that there is no need for purification and atoning for sins before we can experience the peace and joy we desire.  In fact, our seeming help to the Holy Spirit only gets in the way of our awakening.

We have repeated how little is asked of you to learn this course.
T-21.II.1       

Trust not your good intentions. They are not enough.
But trust implicitly your willingness, whatever else may enter. Concentrate only on this, and be not disturbed that shadows surround it. That is why you came. If you could come without them you would not need the holy instant. Come to it not in arrogance, assuming that you must achieve the state its coming brings with it. T-18.IV

It is the Holy Spirit that removes "sins", not us.  Our task is to become aware of them and allow them to be healed.

The miracle of the holy instant lies in your willingness to let it be what it is. And in your willingness for this lies also your acceptance of yourself as you were meant to be. The holy instant does not come from your little willingness alone. It is always the result of your small willingness combined with the unlimited power of God's Will. You have been wrong in thinking that it is needful to prepare yourself for Him. It is impossible to make arrogant preparations for holiness, and not believe that it is up to you to establish the conditions for peace. God has established them. T-18.IV cont.

Thus the Course is not asking us to go out and do "good works" for God. The only good works we need do is to practise forgiveness of ourselves.

The sole responsibility of God's teacher is to accept the Atonement for himself.  Atonement means correction, or the undoing of errors.  When this has been accomplished, the teacher of God becomes a miracle worker by definition. Question 18. Manual for Teachers.

If our path of forgiveness is to do what society would call good works, we would need to remember learning forgiveness is the first aim of our work.

In preparing for the holy instant, do not attempt to make yourself holy to be ready to receive it. That is but to confuse your role with God's. Atonement cannot come to those who think that they must first atone, but only to those who offer it nothing more than simple willingness to make way for it. Purification is of God alone, and therefore for you.
Rather than seek to prepare yourself for Him, try to think thus: T-18.IV cont.

 What follows next can be considered as an affirmation in getting ourselves out of the way  so that the Holy Spirit can do His work through us.  It can be hard for us to realize that our contribution to our spiritual practice is so small compared to that of the Holy Spirit.  What is being asked of us here is humility.

I who am host to God am worthy of Him.
He Who established His dwelling place in me created it as He would have it be.
It is not needful that I make it ready for Him, but only that I do not interfere with His plan to restore to me my own awareness of my readiness, which is eternal.
I need add nothing to His plan.
 But to receive it, I must be willing not to substitute my own in place of it. T-18.IV cont.


4. Our job

Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all of the barriers within yourself that you have built against it. It is not necessary to seek for what is true, but it is necessary to seek for what is false.  T-16.IV.6

A Course in Miracles can be looked upon as a negative path in the sense that miracles do not do anything, they undo misperceptions. The Course asks us to resign as our own teacher, because we have been badly taught. We can use the analogy of the sun covered over by clouds. We are not being asked to find or create a sun, but  simply to notice the clouds and allow them to be dissolved.

Your part is only to offer Him a little willingness to let Him remove all fear and hatred, and to be forgiven. On your little faith, joined with His understanding, He will build your part in the Atonement and make sure that you fulfill it easily. And with Him, you will build a ladder planted in the solid rock of faith, and rising even to Heaven. T-18.V.2:5-7

 It is our co-operation with the Holy Spirit,  and allowing Him to lead the way, that is now required.

Never approach the holy instant after you have tried to remove all fear and hatred from your mind. That is its function. Never attempt to overlook your guilt before you ask the Holy Spirit's help. That is His function. Your part is only to offer Him a little willingness to let Him remove all fear and hatred, and to be forgiven. T-18.V.2

The Bible tells you to become as little children.  Little children recognize that they do not understand what they perceive, and so they ask what it means.  Do not make the mistake of believing that you understand what you perceive, for its meaning is lost to you.... You do not know the meaning of anything you perceive.  Not one thought you hold is wholly true.  The recognition of this is your firm beginning.... T-11.VIII.2.

 The implication of this last quotation is that we are all completely confused. We have completely misunderstood. We believe what our eyes see and what our ears hear and what our brain thinks. Just as our dreams last night seemed so real to us until we woke up, so this ‘waking dream’ also appears real. Jesus tells us we dream 24 hours a day. The only way we can keep our seeming separation going and hold onto our individuality is to live it out in a dream. He even states at one point in the course that there is no life outside of heaven (T-23.II.19.1). Without a sane guide, the Holy Spirit, we would never escape this rather convincing dream.

The presence of fear is a sure sign that you are trusting in your own strength.  The awareness that there is nothing to fear shows that somewhere in your mind, though not necessarily in a place you recognize as yet, you have remembered God, and let His strength take the place of your weakness. The instant you are willing to do this there is indeed nothing to fear. Lesson 48

Undoing Denial
The approach to life’s problems by our ego is always the same and is in fact quite simple. First it tells us we are not the problem it’s the world (denial) and then tells us to accuse the world for our loss of peace (projection). The Course's solution to our problems is the exact opposite to that of the ego.

The Holy Spirit asks of you but this; bring to Him every secret you have locked away from Him.  Open every door to Him, and bid Him enter the darkness and lighten it away.  At your request He enters gladly.  He brings the light to darkness if you make the darkness open to Him.  But what you hide He cannot look upon. T-14.VII.6

 While we insist our problems are in the world we cannot be healed by the miracle. Anger at others may cause them to change their behaviour to suit us, but our problems will simply continue.

Conflict must be resolved. It cannot be evaded, set aside, denied, disguised, seen somewhere else, called by another name, or hidden by deceit of any kind, if it would be escaped. It must be seen exactly as it is, where it is thought to be, in the reality which has been given it, and with the purpose that the mind accorded it. For only then are its defenses lifted, and the truth can shine upon it as it disappears  Lesson 333

 It is much more comfortable for us to see problems in the world and not in ourselves. To look within our minds and see the negativity that needs to be healed is uncomfortable and often a painful process. Previously, we have seen ourselves as innocent and to discover instead all the negativity that lies in our minds is not an easy process. This is why we denied and projected in the first place. Now we’re being asked to take our projections back, undo our denial and allow them to be healed. This can be particularly difficult for people who consider themselves 'spiritual'. They may believe they have gone far beyond anger whilst they have just buried it deeper in their unconscious.

The greatest Guru is helpless as long as the disciple is not eager to learn. Eagerness and earnestness are all-important. Confidence will come with experience. Be devoted to your goal - and devotion to him who can guide you will follow. If your desire and confidence are strong, they will operate and take you to your goal, for you will not cause delay by hesitation and compromise.
Nisargadatta Maharaj 


4. Nisargadatta Maharaj's Spiritual Awakening
from I Am That compared to A Course in Miracles

If I had to choose a couple of spiritual books to take with me onto a desert island they would be A Course in Miracles and Nisargadatta Maharaj's I Am That. Nisargadatta's book consists of transcriptions of dialogues between Nisargadatta Maharaj and people who visited his small house in Calcutta. He struck me as a man who had spiritually awakened, no longer had a personal "I" and was aware the world was a dream. The Course would say he lived in the real world, the Course's term for how the world will appear when our forgiveness lessons are complete. Nisargadatta's path included forgiveness as he practised and advocated a non-judgemental awareness of everything that arose. He sometimes referred to this as being in the "I Am" state, instead of falling into the trap of thinking "I am this" or "I am that" as in the case of thinking "I am this body", "I am a daughter", "I am a sinner", "I am a student," etc.

Watch your mind, how it comes into being, how it operates. As you watch your mind, you discover your self as the watcher. When you stand motionless, only watching, you discover your self as the light behind the watcher. The source of light is dark, unknown is the source of knowledge. That source alone is. Go back to that source and abide there.
Nisargadatta Mahara

Forgiveness  ... is still, and quietly does nothing. .... It merely looks, and waits, and judges not.
A Course in Miracles W-pII.1.4:1,3

A quiet mind is all you need. All else will happen rightly, once your mind is quiet. As the sun on rising makes the world active, so does self-awareness affect changes in the mind. In the light of calm and steady self-awareness, inner energies wake up and work miracles without any effort on your part. Do understand that you are destined for enlightenment. Co-operate with your destiny, don't go against it, don't thwart it. Allow it to fulfill itself. All you have to do is to give attention to the obstacles created by the foolish mind."
Nisargadatta Maharaj

Only be quiet. You will need no rule but this, to let your practicing today lift you above the thinking of the world, and free your vision from the body's eyes. Only be still and listen. You will hear the Word in which the Will of God the Son joins in his Father's Will, at one with it, with no illusions interposed between the wholly indivisible and true.
A Course in Miracles Lesson 129

Below is a dialogue between a visitor who asked Nisargadatta Maharaj about his spiritual awakening. I have also added some other replies on the same subject he gave to different visitors. Relevant quotations from A Course in Miracles (in italics) have been added.

Dialogue:

Questioner: Are we permitted to request you to tell us the manner of your realisation?
Maharaj: Somehow it was very simple and easy in my case. My Guru, before he died, told me: Believe me, you are the Supreme Reality. Don't doubt my words, don't disbelieve me. I am telling you the truth - act on it. I could not forget his words and by not forgetting - I have realised.

Why wait for Heaven? Those who seek the light are merely covering their eyes. The light is in them now. Enlightenment is but a recognition, not a change at all. 
A Course in Miracles  Workbook Lesson 188

Learn, then, the happy habit of response to all temptation to perceive yourself as weak and miserable with these words:
I am as God created me.  His Son can suffer nothing. And I am His Son.
Thus is Christ's strength invited to prevail, replacing all your weakness with the strength that comes from God and that can never fail.
A Course in Miracles T-31.VIII.5.

You are as God created you, and so is every living thing you look upon, regardless of the images you see.  T-31.VIII.6.   

Q: But what were you actually doing?
M: Nothing special. I lived my life, plied my trade, looked after my family, and every free moment I would spend just remembering my Guru and his words. He died soon after and I had only the memory to fall back on. It was enough.

When I met my Guru, he told me: ‘You are not what you take yourself to be. Find out what you are. Watch the sense ‘I am’, find your real Self. I obeyed him, because I trusted him. I did as he told me. All my spare time I would spend looking at myself in silence. And what a difference it made, and how soon! It took only three years to realise my true nature. My Guru died soon after I met him, but it made no difference. I remembered what he told me and persevered.

Error cannot really threaten truth, which can always withstand it. Only the error is actually vulnerable. You are free to establish your kingdom where you see fit, but the right choice is inevitable if you remember this:

Spirit is in a state of grace forever.
Your reality is only spirit.
Therefore you are in a state of grace forever.  T-1.III.5.   

Q (a different visitor): Please tell me which road to self-realisation is the shortest.
M: No way is short or long, but some people are more in earnest and some are less. I can tell you about myself. I was a simple man, but I trusted my Guru. What he told me to do, I did. He told me to concentrate on 'I am' - I did. He told me that I am beyond all perceivables and conceivables - I believed. I gave him my heart and soul, my entire attention and the whole of my spare time (I had to work to keep my family alive). As a result of faith and earnest application, I realised my Self within three years. You may choose any way that suits you; your earnestness will determine the rate of progress.

Q: It must have been the grace and power of your Guru.
M: His words were true and so they came true. True words always come true. My Guru did nothing; his words acted because they were true. Whatever I did, came from within, unasked and unexpected.

Nothing can prevail against a Son of God who commends his spirit into the Hands of his Father. By doing this the mind awakens from its sleep and remembers its Creator. All sense of separation disappears.  T-3.II.5.   

Q: The Guru started a process without taking any part in it?
M: Put it as you like. Things happen as they happen - who can tell why and how? I did nothing deliberately. All came by itself - the desire to let go, to be alone, to go within.

Save time for me by only this one preparation, and practice nothing else. “I need do nothing” is a statement of allegiance, a truly undivided loyalty. Believe it for just one instant, and you will accomplish more than is given to a century of contemplation, or of struggle against temptation.

To do anything involves a body. And if you recognise you need do nothing, you have withdrawn the body’s value from your mind....To do nothing is to rest, and make a place within you where the activity of the body ceases to demand attention. Into this place the Holy Spirit comes, and there abides.... For from this centre will you be directed how to use the body sinlessly.  T-18.VII  

Q: You made no efforts whatsoever?
M: None. Believe it or not, I was not even anxious to realise. He only told me that I am the Supreme and then died. I just could not disbelieve him. The rest happened by itself. I found myself changing - that is all. As a matter of fact, I was astonished.

Whenever you are tempted to undertake a useless journey that would lead away from light, remember what you really want, and say:

The Holy Spirit leads me unto Christ, and where else would I go? What need have I but to awake in Him?  T-13.VII.14.   

Then follow Him in joy, with faith that He will lead you safely through all dangers to your peace of mind this world may set before you. T-13.VII.15.   

But a desire arose in me to verify his words. I was so sure that he, could not possibly have told a lie, that I felt I shall either realise the full meaning of his words or die. I was feeling quite determined, but did not know what to do. I would spend hours thinking of him and his assurance, not arguing, but just remembering what he told me.

Have faith in only this one thing, and it will be sufficient: God wills you be in Heaven, and nothing can keep you from it, or it from you. Your wildest misperceptions, your weird imaginings, your blackest nightmares all mean nothing. They will not prevail against the peace God wills for you. The Holy Spirit will restore your sanity because insanity is not the Will of God. T-13.XI.7.   

Q: What happened to you then? How did you know that you are the Supreme?
M: Nobody came to tell me. Nor was I told so inwardly. In fact, it was only in the beginning when I was making efforts, that I was passing through some strange experiences; seeing lights, hearing voices, meeting gods and goddesses and conversing with them.

As we go along, you may have many "light episodes." They may take many different forms, some of them quite unexpected. Do not be afraid of them. Workbook Lesson 15

 Once the Guru told me: 'You are the Supreme Reality', I ceased having visions and trances and became very quiet and simple.

They are signs that you are opening your eyes at last. They will not persist, because they merely symbolize true perception, and they are not related to knowledge. Workbook Lesson 15

I found myself desiring and knowing less and less, until I could say in utter astonishment: 'I know nothing, I want nothing.'

To learn this course requires willingness to question every value that you hold. Not one can be kept hidden and obscure but it will jeopardize your learning. No belief is neutral.  T-24.in.2.   

You do not know the meaning of anything you perceive. Not one thought you hold is wholly true. The recognition of this is your firm beginning. You are not misguided; you have accepted no guide at all.  Instruction in perception is your great need, for you understand nothing.
Recognize this but do not accept it, for understanding is your inheritance. Perceptions are learned, and you are not without a Teacher. Yet your willingness to learn of Him depends on your willingness to question everything you learned of yourself, for you who learned amiss should not be your own teacher.  T-11.VIII.3.

There was no 'me' left to strive for. Even the bare 'I am' faded away.
The other thing that I noticed was that I lost all my habitual certainties. Earlier I was sure of so many things, now I am sure of nothing. But I feel that I have lost nothing by not knowing, because all my knowledge was false. My not knowing was in itself knowledge of the fact that all knowledge is ignorance, that 'I do not know' is the only true statement the mind can make.

Think not you understand anything until you pass the test of perfect peace, for peace and understanding go together and never can be found alone. T-14.XI.12:4

Your learning gives the present no meaning at all. Nothing you have ever learned can help you understand the present, or teach you how to undo the past. Your past is what you have taught yourself. Let it all go. Do not attempt to understand any event or anything or anyone in its "light," for the darkness in which you try to see can only obscure. T-14.XI.3:4-8

Q: Were you genuinely free of desire and knowledge, or did you impersonate a jnani (enlightened teacher) according to the image given to you by your Guru?
M: I was not given any image, nor did I have one. My Guru never told me what to expect.

If you imagine yourself as separate from the world, the world will appear as separate from you and you will experience desire and fear. I do not see the world as separate from me and so there is nothing for me to desire, or fear.

Q: More things may happen to you. Are you at the end of your journey?
M: There was never any journey. I am, as I always was.

Yes, I appear to hear and see and talk and act, but to me it just happens, as to you digestion or perspiration happens.  The body-mind machine looks after it, but leaves me out of it.  Just as you do not need to worry about growing hair, so I need not worry about words and actions.  They just happen and leave me unconcerned, for in my world nothing ever goes wrong.

To me nothing ever happens. There is something changeless, motionless, immovable, rock-like, unassailable; a solid mass of pure being-consciousness-bliss. I am never out of it. Nothing can take me out of it, no torture, no calamity.

The journey to God is merely the reawakening of the knowledge of where you are always, and what you are forever. It is a journey without distance to a goal that has never changed. Truth can only be experienced. It cannot be described and it cannot be explained.  I can make you aware of the conditions of truth, but the experience is of God. Together we can meet its conditions, but truth will dawn upon you of itself.  T-8.VI.9.   

Q: What was the Supreme Reality you were supposed to reach?
M: I was undeceived, that is all. I used to create a world and populate it - now I don't do it any more.

The world and the mind are states of being.  The supreme is not a state.  It pervades all states, but it is not a state of something else.  It is entirely uncaused, independent, complete in itself, beyond time and space, mind and matter.   ........There is nothing to recognise it by.  It must be seen directly, by giving up all search for signs and approaches.  When all names and forms have been given up, the real is with you.  You need not seek it.  Plurality and diversity are the play of the mind only.  Reality is one.

What I see reflects a process in my mind, which starts with my idea of what I want. From there, the mind makes up an image of the thing the mind desires, judges valuable, and therefore seeks to find. These images are then projected outward, looked upon, esteemed as real and guarded as one's own. From insane wishes comes an insane world. From judgement comes a world condemned.
Workbook Lesson 325

Q: Where do you live, then?
M: In the void beyond being and non-being, beyond consciousness. This void is also fullness; do not pity me. It is like a man saying: 'I have done my work, there is nothing left to do'.

I see no difference between you and me.  My life is a succession of events, just like yours.  Only I am detached and see the passing show as a passing show, while you stick to things and move along with them.

Having realised that I am one with, and yet beyond the world, I became free from all desire and fear. I did not reason out that I should be free - I found myself free - unexpectedly, without the least effort. This freedom from desire and fear remained with me since then. Another thing I noticed was that I do not need to make an effort; the deed follows the thought, without delay and friction. I have also found that thoughts become self-fulfilling; things would fall in place smoothly and rightly. The main change was in the mind; it became motionless and silent, responding quickly, but not perpetuating the response. Spontaneity became a way of life, the real became natural and the natural became real. And above all, infinite affection, love, dark and quiet, radiating in all directions, embracing all, making all interesting and beautiful, significant and auspicious.

Q: You are giving a certain date to your realisation. It means something did happen to you at that date. What happened?
M: The mind ceased producing events. The ancient and ceaseless search stopped - l wanted nothing, expected nothing - accepted nothing as my own.

I think the above quotations from Nisargadatta Maharaj give a valuable insight into the real world, which is the goal of A Course in Miracles. I will finish this article with a favorite quote of mine from Nisargadatta where he highlights the paradox of the awake person who is both everything and nothing.

When I look within and see that I am nothing, that is wisdom.
When I look without and see that I am everything, that is love.
And between these two, my life turns.
Nisargadatta Maharaj


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